So I have Crohn's disease. It's been ongoing for 7 years without remission. This year I've been in the hospital constantly since March. Staying 1-3 weeks at a time. I had a bad Crohn's flare which resulted in appendicitis and acute renal failure. In June I had an ileostomy placed. I was very depressed after the surgery because after I left the hospital I developed an infection. I could barely move, had difficulty breathing, and was severly dehydrated. Which earned me another week in the hospital. During this whole 5 month period I pushed away my best friends. It wasn't really intentional. I just felt that they didn't get it. They don't have medical problems and don't know what it's like to go through basically hell and feel hopeless often. I was also dating someone, but broke it off since it wasn't fair to him to deal with me constantly being sick. My mom has been a huge help with supporting me, staying at the hospital, fighting with insurance, etc. I just sometimes still wonder if it will always be like this and what life will look like. It makes me anxious to think about it