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Just thought I might have a rant/vent.
Health wise I don't really have anything to complain about at the moment, steroids going ok. Not sure how effective my surgery has been, just waiting on appointments in feb to find out about the next steps.
But life wise I'm seriously fed up at the moment.
My mum summed it up in a conversation I heard her have with her friend a few months ago about me and my sister: "(my sister) has everything at the moment, really exciting, just started uni, has her career ahead of her, has her friends a lovely boyfriend. But Holly has nothing, she doesn't have a job, she doesn't have her friends or a boyfriend, she doesn't have any money and she doesn't even have her health"
Its the end of January now so I can add another month of unemployment. I know I have needed this time since xmas to recover, but I can't exactly put that on my CV can I. And to employers all they see is that I haven't done anything since I have finished uni. I have applied to so many things and I just don't know how to turn this around. I really want a job but I cant do more than apply for things. (I had an interview last week for a volunteer position so I'm hoping something will come of that at least).
I look forward to the weekends to give myself some days off the job search but then my family just seriously annoy me. (I feel bad for moaning about them because they are supportive and lovely to me).
But our house is small, my bedroom a box room so I have no choice but to sit with them in the lounge all day and evening. My sister comes home for the weekends and at the moment she is on a placement for uni and she just goes on and on about it and she has got so up herself almost everything she says at me it feels like she is snapping at me. So annoying, especially since she was lovely to me over xmas while I was in hospital and I was sad for her to go away on placement. Then when she goes again its all my parents can talk about. I feel like we have the same convos again and again and I sit here getting more and more angry and frustrated.
I actually feel like this forum is all that I have at the moment. I don't have anything which is mine to be excited about and look forward to the way my sister does. I don't want to begrudge her happiness but it is hard when I have nothing. I want to be happy too.
I try and be positive but I'm finding it really hard at the moment, in a few months I will be 22. How many 22 year olds have so little? This should be my time, you know?
Thank you for reading. x
Health wise I don't really have anything to complain about at the moment, steroids going ok. Not sure how effective my surgery has been, just waiting on appointments in feb to find out about the next steps.
But life wise I'm seriously fed up at the moment.
My mum summed it up in a conversation I heard her have with her friend a few months ago about me and my sister: "(my sister) has everything at the moment, really exciting, just started uni, has her career ahead of her, has her friends a lovely boyfriend. But Holly has nothing, she doesn't have a job, she doesn't have her friends or a boyfriend, she doesn't have any money and she doesn't even have her health"
Its the end of January now so I can add another month of unemployment. I know I have needed this time since xmas to recover, but I can't exactly put that on my CV can I. And to employers all they see is that I haven't done anything since I have finished uni. I have applied to so many things and I just don't know how to turn this around. I really want a job but I cant do more than apply for things. (I had an interview last week for a volunteer position so I'm hoping something will come of that at least).
I look forward to the weekends to give myself some days off the job search but then my family just seriously annoy me. (I feel bad for moaning about them because they are supportive and lovely to me).
But our house is small, my bedroom a box room so I have no choice but to sit with them in the lounge all day and evening. My sister comes home for the weekends and at the moment she is on a placement for uni and she just goes on and on about it and she has got so up herself almost everything she says at me it feels like she is snapping at me. So annoying, especially since she was lovely to me over xmas while I was in hospital and I was sad for her to go away on placement. Then when she goes again its all my parents can talk about. I feel like we have the same convos again and again and I sit here getting more and more angry and frustrated.
I actually feel like this forum is all that I have at the moment. I don't have anything which is mine to be excited about and look forward to the way my sister does. I don't want to begrudge her happiness but it is hard when I have nothing. I want to be happy too.
I try and be positive but I'm finding it really hard at the moment, in a few months I will be 22. How many 22 year olds have so little? This should be my time, you know?
Thank you for reading. x