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A diagnosis I can't come to terms with

Hi, new here:). Just about 2 weeks ago I was diagnosed with Crohn's disease after a year filled with misery, frustration and questions that always seemed to go unanswered. A little over a year ago I had gone to the doctor and they noticed my iron level was low and my weight had taken a nose dive of 14 pounds. After no explanation for the weight loss, I was put on an iron supplement and sent home. A few months later I noticed that I was getting mouth sores. They covered every inch of my mouth it seemed and it made eating anything a chore. I brushed it off as a symptom of low iron. The next month is when I started experiencing extreme discomfort in my lower abdomen and nausea. Also loose stools, random fevers and urgency like I have never experienced before. These things would happen on a daily basis, more than 5 times a day. Of course I brushed things off as maybe a virus or something, hoping it would go away at the end of the week. 3 months later filled of denial and complete suffering, I finally decided it was time to go to the doctor. After a few blood tests, I was taken to the emergency room due to an iron level of 8.4 and a heart rate of 148 beats per minute and ongoing weightloss. I can't tell you how frustrating it was being in a hospital when everyone was concerned more about my heart and not what was crippling me digestively for months. I was not responding to the IV full of iron they pumped into me that first night, but nevertheless, I was sent home 3 days later, prescribed with an iron supplement, Lopressor for my heart, and deep annoyance that I felt no better leaving than I did entering. Still pale, still feeling miserable, and weighing only 104 pounds compared to the 132 pounds I was less than a year ago. After 5 grueling months, symptoms got worse, and I kind of felt helpless to be honest. I didn't know what was wrong with me, the specialists had no answers, and I was running to the bathroom more times than a person should ever have to at the age of 19. Almost 2 weeks ago I finally underwent my first colonoscopy 2 days before my 20th birthday, and I was diagnosed with Crohn's. I am now on Asacol HD, 800mg, 3 times a day. Let me first start off by saying I am in every way blessed and grateful that my diagnosis was not something worse, because it could have been. But I am having a very hard time accepting it. I feel like I am dealing with a 70yr olds problems, in a 20yr olds body and I am sad that this is a problem I will have to deal with the rest of my life. I'm still pale due to Anemia caused by this, still at a low weight of 108lbs. And I feel like my body has betrayed me. I have never been a confident person to begin with, and this experience has brought me to an all time low and I have yet to have had any relief of my symptoms. I'm afraid things won't get better as it has been such a rollercoaster ride this past year. But any encouraging advice or anything would be SO appreciated!
 

DJW

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Hi Sarabeth. Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry to hear you've been suffering. The early stages of diagnosis are the most difficult. So much to take in and deal with. On the plus side, with a diagnosis the doctor can work towards getting you into remission. You can get your life back. Take care.
 
Hi SaraBeth, I read you loud and clear. I can relate to your story and agree with DJW that the early stages are rough. I think the term in psychology is cognitive dissonance -- it's like your brain can't wrap around what you're being told. Despite having felt bad for awhile, I think we really try to "brush it off", like you said. We believe in the body's inherent ability to heal, you're young, your friends are healthy, what gives? I don't have an answer, but I will keep you in my prayers and pray the you continue to honor and give gratitude for your body. I do know its important what we tell ourselves so as you find the best GI specialist and perhaps nutritionist in your area, tell your body you deeply and completely love and accept it. You guys are in this together. And hopefully remission will come soon and you can get your life back. There is definitely hope. Lots of hope. You can do this.
 
SaraBeth11,
I'm sorry you are having to deal with this. We have all been there. It is very difficulty to come to terms with. Now that you are diagnosed, try to take charge of your life and wellness; taking control and being proactive will help. Try not to get to worried or anxious about stuff you read, your journey will be your own. I hope you find a good medication management routine soon and start feeling better. Keep us posted.
 
Hello and welcome! I'm sorry you've been suffering and I hope you find a medication combo that works for you and gets you into remission. You are definitely not alone here as we all know how you're feeling. I've been fighting the good fight for 13 years (I'm 24) and let me say it's rough at first, but once you are in remission it's almost like you have your life back. Everyone here is very supportive and anytime you need advice or just need to rant feel free to do so. Good luck and keep us updated!
 
Hi sarabeth like you my daughter was diagnosed with crohns this year after 8 months of symptoms 3 of which she didnt share with anyone what she was going thru. I knew she wasnt well but thought it was a virus or maybe glandula fever. It was only on encouraging her to visit docs that she came home it tears and told me all her symptoms and how long she had been suffering. She to says she feels like a 70 yr old some days its hard for her to get out of bed. She too had mouth ulsers this im pleased to say have stopped, she also now gets rashes that come and go on her face and chest. She also just after being diagnosed got painful lumps come up on her leg and arms and her joints ached terribly, but she still went to work. She still goes out and away with friends she just has to be very aware of her body and how she is feeling, Every day for her is different and each day she seems to have to deal with something else. I think its very important that you share how your feeling with friends and family and here, I know this site has helped me as a mum to at least try to understand how she feeling and support her when she gets a new symptom so that shes not worried, stress its not good for crohns... crohns affects more people than we realise its just its not spoken about, the more we all speak about this disease openly the more understanding we all become and hopefully soon they will find a cure....which they will so stay positive in mind and body my thoughts are with you.
 
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