Last week I told XXjemma to hang in there, and got hospitalised the same day, this week I need to tell myself to hang in there it will go away magically disappear, being this exhausted, tired and in immense pain is no damn joke. Humour is just another coping mechanism and today I am totally lacking in that department, I am also one of those that pushes myself to the limit both at work and at home, and none of them understand or know what CD is and I don't have the energy to explain to them. When they say you look well I want to ask compared to what? A washed out dishrag? My body takes no nutrition from food, no fibre diet, no vitamins what the hell am I suppose to tell these people without sounding like hypochondriac? I don't want CD to rule/ruin my life and feel very sorry for myself today but mainly frustrated and angry I suppose. Don't even know what to tell my boss anymore they have been more than accommodating with absence from work but the last three months have been very bad. Still I want to say hang in there it will and must get better only wished that today I believed that myself.