I used to be a very intelligent man (I'm not bragging, just stating the truth).
But right now I feel...well... dumb.
I find myself with severe brain fog that is seriously disturbing me. My father keeps bringing up things I said that I completely forgot. I ordered a leather jacket on Amazon and have no memory of the event (granted, I think I ordered it on pred. but still).
I just feel completely out of it. I sleep much of the day then I spent the rest of it in a fog. Time passes quickly. Focusing is hard.
Again, not trying to e-brag, but I've read hundreds of the greatest books ever written. For instance, I finished War and Peace my freshman year of HS and now I struggle to comprehend simple books (like the one I'm reading on Crohns). My reading speed is at least half what it used to be and sometimes I wonder if I even remember much of what I read.
I get that this terrible condition can make me feel tired, lose weight, stay in my room, and put me in pain, but it making me lose my mental edge? - that's enough to make me curl up in a fetile position and cry.
I'm a very skilled writer especially for my age. That's how I made my living before this flare has made working nearly impossible. Writing (especially fiction) is my mission in life, and if I'm too mentally reduced to produce great work I feel like my life has lost a lot of value.
As of right now I can barely remember what I ate for breakfast so writing a great novel seems abjectly far off.
I thread on people witnessing similar things:
http://www.crohnsforum.com/showthread.php?t=15900
But right now I feel...well... dumb.
I find myself with severe brain fog that is seriously disturbing me. My father keeps bringing up things I said that I completely forgot. I ordered a leather jacket on Amazon and have no memory of the event (granted, I think I ordered it on pred. but still).
I just feel completely out of it. I sleep much of the day then I spent the rest of it in a fog. Time passes quickly. Focusing is hard.
Again, not trying to e-brag, but I've read hundreds of the greatest books ever written. For instance, I finished War and Peace my freshman year of HS and now I struggle to comprehend simple books (like the one I'm reading on Crohns). My reading speed is at least half what it used to be and sometimes I wonder if I even remember much of what I read.
I get that this terrible condition can make me feel tired, lose weight, stay in my room, and put me in pain, but it making me lose my mental edge? - that's enough to make me curl up in a fetile position and cry.
I'm a very skilled writer especially for my age. That's how I made my living before this flare has made working nearly impossible. Writing (especially fiction) is my mission in life, and if I'm too mentally reduced to produce great work I feel like my life has lost a lot of value.
As of right now I can barely remember what I ate for breakfast so writing a great novel seems abjectly far off.
I thread on people witnessing similar things:
http://www.crohnsforum.com/showthread.php?t=15900