Greetings all, I know it may not be the most normal to to make introductions on the vent part of the forum but that's what i'm here to do mostly so here goes, with a little background first.
I am a married single earner with a doting wife and 2 lovely kids and a 3rd on the way. I have been diagnosed with crohn's for 3 years it is mostly under control. I also am plagued with a host of other problems ranging from diabetes, nerve problems, and various minor autoimmune disorders. I am hypertensive and have high cholesterol and low testosterone to boot. The latest is hypercalcemia likely caused by a benign tumor on one or more of my parathyroid glands. I am in the early stages of kidney failure from a combination of these miladies.
I have job I don't like, they have reduced my hours and they often fail to pay my insurance premiums. I don't feel secure enough to incur a surgery bill or any other kind of bill in case they don't pay.
I have been applying to other jobs that and continually get the door slammed in my face because I am known throughout the community as the sick guy that cant do any work and for the ones that don't already know my current employer is more than willing to badmouth me. I fully understand why a business wouldn't want me but since we're being honest I don't want them either. I'm sick of working, I'm sick of everything and just wish I would f#@$ing die sometimes. The stress of providing for my family in the face of all this is becoming unbearable and I see no way out. The only thing that keeps me going is my loving family but even when I look at them I look knowing that I am failing them and when this shitty employer has had enough of me we will have to leave our house as a further insult heaped to my unending shame and torment of failure to provide.
internet do your worst
I am a married single earner with a doting wife and 2 lovely kids and a 3rd on the way. I have been diagnosed with crohn's for 3 years it is mostly under control. I also am plagued with a host of other problems ranging from diabetes, nerve problems, and various minor autoimmune disorders. I am hypertensive and have high cholesterol and low testosterone to boot. The latest is hypercalcemia likely caused by a benign tumor on one or more of my parathyroid glands. I am in the early stages of kidney failure from a combination of these miladies.
I have job I don't like, they have reduced my hours and they often fail to pay my insurance premiums. I don't feel secure enough to incur a surgery bill or any other kind of bill in case they don't pay.
I have been applying to other jobs that and continually get the door slammed in my face because I am known throughout the community as the sick guy that cant do any work and for the ones that don't already know my current employer is more than willing to badmouth me. I fully understand why a business wouldn't want me but since we're being honest I don't want them either. I'm sick of working, I'm sick of everything and just wish I would f#@$ing die sometimes. The stress of providing for my family in the face of all this is becoming unbearable and I see no way out. The only thing that keeps me going is my loving family but even when I look at them I look knowing that I am failing them and when this shitty employer has had enough of me we will have to leave our house as a further insult heaped to my unending shame and torment of failure to provide.
internet do your worst
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