Hello to all who are reading this now. I'm a fairly new Crohn's diagnosis and I've come to accept it in general, but one thing I still have a problem with is self-blame. Basically, I constantly tell myself that it's my fault that I have this and I did this to myself, I should never have picked up cigarettes (quit 2 years ago thankfully), I should've eaten less candy, every possible way to blame myself for developing Crohn's has crossed my mind. When I'm flaring or in pain and my mom says, "I'm sorry you're so miserable," I usually reply with something along the lines of, "Don't be, this is my fault, I did this to myself." I had genetic testing done which showed three genetic mutations associated with IBD so I wonder if it could've happened anyway, but I need to reach a better mind state and stop blaming myself because I know it's not helping me. Any and all advice is welcome.