Hi and welcome.....please don't be so hard on yourself.You're obviously having a bad day and are reaching out for comfort,whether or not you believe so.Tomorrow is another day and we all have hopes for a good one.We have threads that will be of interest to you,so please have a look around and familiarise yourself.There are others who have been through or are at present going through,the same as you are now,so you are not alone,although it feels that way.We offer support and understanding,when we can,and some of the threads allow us to give vent or have fun.Best wishes to you.