Ever since high school I've when I felt like I had to go i had to go right then and felt awful. It affected me having school. Not only was I changing school but I was having this symptom (I didn't really think anything to it). Before I even started there was a situation that caused me to be teased. After I graduated I got married to my high school sweetheart. Not long after we were married I realized that my symptoms were getting worse and were a big problem. My then new MIL brought me with my husband to the hospital. That started a almost 3 year time of test. Not long after I had my daughter we got insurance.where i was able to go to a better hospital and get a real diagnosis. I had Crohn's!! After taking asacol and predinose I got a little better . it wasn't long that stopped working. They then tried Humira which didn't work. Next they tried remicade. Finally I was in remission. I was on it for 2 years before I got pregnant. I got to stay on it till week 30. The obgyn was very scared for the health of me and baby. I was monitored every other week until week 25 then every week. At week 32 my son's heart rate dropped for about 5 mins. They put me in the hospital on strict bed rest. At week 34 I had my baby. Afterwards they started my remicade right after I got out of c-section. It didn't take long before it failed. I'm not on tysabri. I've been on for a almost 2 years. I fear that it is failing. I'm always running fever. My diahrrea is getting worse. Last night I experienced the worst night of all my Crohn's time. We went out for my 26th birthday with friends. We went and ate and I was feeling great. 2 hours later I started feeling bad. I didn't want to end the night so I kept on going. My husband realized that I was running fever. Still I said I was OK. Next thing I knew I needed to go to the bathroom. I went to find it and didn't quite make it. I was so humiliated. I'm not a baby why was this happening. My husband brought me back to the truck. I then called my friend and told her I needed to go home. She knew I didn't feel good so she said she was coming and we would go. I was so scared I was going to go through the same thing I did in high school. That no one wanted to be my friend anymore or want to be around me on the way home. When she got there I ending up telling her what had happened. To my surprise she was very supportive. The whole ride home she sat by me and was trying to cheer me up.even though I know she doesn't hate me or embarrassed to be around me I'm so scared to go anywhere. I just want to stay in my house and never leave in fear of it happening again. My husband doesn't want me to tear my self down about it. I just don't know if I can get over this. I feel like I'm the only one that this has happened to. Has this happened to anyone else? Is there something I can do for it not to happen again. Omdium doesn't help at all. Please tell me I'm not alone!!!