Hey everyone!
Just wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience to me? I've had really crippling anxiety since my teens, interspersed with bouts of depression. I've always just about coped, and on the one occasion I built up the courage to see my GP about it, she referred me for CBT. This was way too big an ask at the time, I could barely leave the house and the thought of going to weekly appointments to discuss my 'failure' (I realise that's not the case but that's still my knee jerk reaction), was terrifying and overwhelming.
I've had the worst year of my life this year, seriously being diagnosed with severe Crohn's has been a walk in the park compared to the rest. Just before I was finally diagnosed I'd hit an all time low and I was convinced my life was completely falling apart. I didn't even truly believe I had a physical illness, I just thought the ridiculous stresses I was under in every aspect of my life was making me lose the plot. I was just a shell or a zombie, not really interacting with life at all just existing to go to work and worry.
Fast forward to the present....I feel so much better. The anxiety isn't gone but I can have the odd day without it now which is a big relief. I'm not sure how I was still managing to work before, now that I do get some respite. Recently I've been finding I'm very emotional? I cry at the slightest little thing, it's ridiculous. I've managed to keep it in check at work but elsewhere it's getting to be silly! It soon passes but I feel vaguely sad for ages afterwards without really knowing why?
Is this just me getting better and actually feeling things like normal people do or should I be worried? I have always been a bit repressed in that department with the old British stiff upper lip, but I'm struggling to rationalise what's going on with me? Is this a delayed reaction to the amount of stress I was under earlier in the year but was too poorly to process?
Thanks in advance
Just wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience to me? I've had really crippling anxiety since my teens, interspersed with bouts of depression. I've always just about coped, and on the one occasion I built up the courage to see my GP about it, she referred me for CBT. This was way too big an ask at the time, I could barely leave the house and the thought of going to weekly appointments to discuss my 'failure' (I realise that's not the case but that's still my knee jerk reaction), was terrifying and overwhelming.
I've had the worst year of my life this year, seriously being diagnosed with severe Crohn's has been a walk in the park compared to the rest. Just before I was finally diagnosed I'd hit an all time low and I was convinced my life was completely falling apart. I didn't even truly believe I had a physical illness, I just thought the ridiculous stresses I was under in every aspect of my life was making me lose the plot. I was just a shell or a zombie, not really interacting with life at all just existing to go to work and worry.
Fast forward to the present....I feel so much better. The anxiety isn't gone but I can have the odd day without it now which is a big relief. I'm not sure how I was still managing to work before, now that I do get some respite. Recently I've been finding I'm very emotional? I cry at the slightest little thing, it's ridiculous. I've managed to keep it in check at work but elsewhere it's getting to be silly! It soon passes but I feel vaguely sad for ages afterwards without really knowing why?
Is this just me getting better and actually feeling things like normal people do or should I be worried? I have always been a bit repressed in that department with the old British stiff upper lip, but I'm struggling to rationalise what's going on with me? Is this a delayed reaction to the amount of stress I was under earlier in the year but was too poorly to process?
Thanks in advance