I'm just needing a good vent here and to hear from people who've been in a similar situation.
I appreciate that my husband is 25 and probably did not expect to be facing up to what we have to on a daily basis. And I do get that I do not fulfill my wifely duties as I should because I spend most of my time sleeping these days!
Around 3 weeks ago I was too sick to go to a friends and he didn't speak to me properly for about a week. Every word had an undertone of resentment to it.
Then on Tuesday just there I had to go in for MR enteroclysis. I was extremely distressed by getting an NJ tube placed, they got it into my stomach and could go no further, my gag reflex was so strong I was still gagging severely when I should have stopped. In fact I really, really hurt my back the retching was so violent. I have been in pain now not only with my tummy since my steroid dose is coming down, but my back is so painful when it hits the wrong spot I am close to passing out. I have to work tomorrow (I'm a dentist) and bad backs and dentistry do not mix and I am stressing out something awful.
So when my husband showed absolutely no sympathy and in fact seemed angry I couldn't get the tube down it was pretty upsetting. Then he came in yesterday and said 'hello faker' in reference to my back. When I flipped out on him for that he just said he was joking, but why say something like that if there's not an element of how you feel in it? Everything is always about how it inconveniences him, and I can see why he feels like that, but a hug when I've had a really bad day trying to get a stupid tube stuffed up my nose wouldn't go amiss. Instead he sulks as if I've done something wrong.
I'm so glad to have my mum, she has rheumatoid arthritis and since her diagnosis is completely understanding. But I feel so so alone most of the time having lost the majority of my friendships during my worst periods of illness. I just wish my husband was more supportive, I'm too scared to tell him I feel unwell or squiffy as he goes in a mood.
Our relationship is otherwise perfect except for this big black cloud of my illnesses hanging over us.
Anyone else feel the same? :frown:
I appreciate that my husband is 25 and probably did not expect to be facing up to what we have to on a daily basis. And I do get that I do not fulfill my wifely duties as I should because I spend most of my time sleeping these days!
Around 3 weeks ago I was too sick to go to a friends and he didn't speak to me properly for about a week. Every word had an undertone of resentment to it.
Then on Tuesday just there I had to go in for MR enteroclysis. I was extremely distressed by getting an NJ tube placed, they got it into my stomach and could go no further, my gag reflex was so strong I was still gagging severely when I should have stopped. In fact I really, really hurt my back the retching was so violent. I have been in pain now not only with my tummy since my steroid dose is coming down, but my back is so painful when it hits the wrong spot I am close to passing out. I have to work tomorrow (I'm a dentist) and bad backs and dentistry do not mix and I am stressing out something awful.
So when my husband showed absolutely no sympathy and in fact seemed angry I couldn't get the tube down it was pretty upsetting. Then he came in yesterday and said 'hello faker' in reference to my back. When I flipped out on him for that he just said he was joking, but why say something like that if there's not an element of how you feel in it? Everything is always about how it inconveniences him, and I can see why he feels like that, but a hug when I've had a really bad day trying to get a stupid tube stuffed up my nose wouldn't go amiss. Instead he sulks as if I've done something wrong.
I'm so glad to have my mum, she has rheumatoid arthritis and since her diagnosis is completely understanding. But I feel so so alone most of the time having lost the majority of my friendships during my worst periods of illness. I just wish my husband was more supportive, I'm too scared to tell him I feel unwell or squiffy as he goes in a mood.
Our relationship is otherwise perfect except for this big black cloud of my illnesses hanging over us.
Anyone else feel the same? :frown: