Hello fellow members,
This is my first visit to an IBD forum, and I'm hopeful about finding support among others who share my experience.
I am 27 years old and I've been living in Toronto for 2 years. I have a diagnosis of Crohn's colitis, and I'm currently experiencing a flare of my symptoms for the first time since a fairly serious flare in 2010. Because most medications actually worsened my symptoms, I've been on no maintenance meds, and I feel fortunate to have been well for roughly four years with only brief episodes of mild symptoms. I suspect that right now I'm getting worse because of emotional stresses in my relationship and demands of work.
When I was first diagnosed, I had a major depression, feelings of low self worth and hopelessness about my future. I was 19 years old and thought somehow that having IBD made me flawed, unlovable, and destined to have a horrible life. Fortunately, I have come very far in terms of self esteem and acceptance, but there is still a tendency to feel low and anxious when I get sick.
For several weeks I have been struggling a lot. My mood fluctuates and I have missed days of work. Other times I've shown up late but been too embarrassed to explain that it was related to my symptoms. Even though being alone makes me ruminate and feel terrible, I find myself avoiding friends - literally not answering the phone or texts, and even just cancelling last minute. This fuels a vicious cycle and I feel worse about myself. Does anyone else experience this?
I'm open to ideas and suggestions for day to day coping, and ways to feel worthy and good about oneself. I am on an antidepressant medication that helps a bit, and I have a psychiatrist, so I'm very fortunate. I think a big part of what is missing for me is any kind of connection to other people who suffer as I do. Silly as it sounds, I feel like I'm the only one in the world who struggles this way.
Eventually it would be nice to have a Toronto group that could meet in person from time to time... but that might take some time to organize.
Looking forward to some posts. I want to note that although I might be in need of support and inspiration right now, please do not be discouraged yourself by my story. I've had many years of high functioning and positive romantic relationships. I have a job and a generally high quality of life, but still sometimes fall off the horse.
Nice to meet you.
This is my first visit to an IBD forum, and I'm hopeful about finding support among others who share my experience.
I am 27 years old and I've been living in Toronto for 2 years. I have a diagnosis of Crohn's colitis, and I'm currently experiencing a flare of my symptoms for the first time since a fairly serious flare in 2010. Because most medications actually worsened my symptoms, I've been on no maintenance meds, and I feel fortunate to have been well for roughly four years with only brief episodes of mild symptoms. I suspect that right now I'm getting worse because of emotional stresses in my relationship and demands of work.
When I was first diagnosed, I had a major depression, feelings of low self worth and hopelessness about my future. I was 19 years old and thought somehow that having IBD made me flawed, unlovable, and destined to have a horrible life. Fortunately, I have come very far in terms of self esteem and acceptance, but there is still a tendency to feel low and anxious when I get sick.
For several weeks I have been struggling a lot. My mood fluctuates and I have missed days of work. Other times I've shown up late but been too embarrassed to explain that it was related to my symptoms. Even though being alone makes me ruminate and feel terrible, I find myself avoiding friends - literally not answering the phone or texts, and even just cancelling last minute. This fuels a vicious cycle and I feel worse about myself. Does anyone else experience this?
I'm open to ideas and suggestions for day to day coping, and ways to feel worthy and good about oneself. I am on an antidepressant medication that helps a bit, and I have a psychiatrist, so I'm very fortunate. I think a big part of what is missing for me is any kind of connection to other people who suffer as I do. Silly as it sounds, I feel like I'm the only one in the world who struggles this way.
Eventually it would be nice to have a Toronto group that could meet in person from time to time... but that might take some time to organize.
Looking forward to some posts. I want to note that although I might be in need of support and inspiration right now, please do not be discouraged yourself by my story. I've had many years of high functioning and positive romantic relationships. I have a job and a generally high quality of life, but still sometimes fall off the horse.
Nice to meet you.