Hello, I have suffered with Crohns for around 4 years now and life is okay, I hope I am not saddening anyone struggling at the moment as I am rather well and dont want to make anyone feel down writing a good post rather than a bad one for a change.
I am really in a sticky situation with my life and future aims, I currently work in a café as a shift manager and its okay, I manage to work pretty much full time hours and its fine, I just want more from life. After nearly dying to this awful disease I want to take the opportunity while I am OKAY to do things and to make memories/ adventures that maybe one day I wont be able to do if I go backwards again. 3 years ago I was pretty much dead so thats why I am so forward thinking and always looking for something to change my life and do.
Am I wrong in thinking this? should I have the attitude of just living a standard life while I am well and getting on with it and just looking for opportunities that will better my career prospects or should I look for opportunities that I will enjoy and never forget?
Do I have to wrong attitude? I feel like nobody can compare, when I try to explain to people how I feel about life and how my outlook is people just think I am living in the clouds and I should focus on doing "career focused shit" e.g get a good job and go on nice holidays etc.. but what about just travelling the world now or finding a job in another country or in a travel orientated role, a ski instructor for example? Like is my outlook wrong? I really just want to grab life and do so much, ive dont a bit of travelling while ive been well and im super appreciative for everything that I am able to do even though Crohns is a horrific disease every day I am so happy to just be alive and here.
So really I am asking should I quit this attitude of always wanting to do something adventurous? like quitting my job and travelling the world or applying for a job in another country for the summer? or should I focus on my life and "PLAN" for the future? Life is just so unpredictable and I dont want to get to an older age and think, FUCK why didn't I just do that, or go there? But then again I dont want to actually get to an old age and think why have I wasted all my money/time doing that and not planned ahead for the future. YANO? I just have this mentality that bad shit is gonna happen to me because what has happened in the past, I had a ruptured intestine a couple years ago and its changed my life for sure, this is why I think im so just pumped to take life and do whatever, but is it right?
I am also super like negative about my future and I just cant shift the "BAD shit is gonna happen again attitude" and its not right, I might be okay for a while, we all will be okay cus we STRONG as fuck, but yeah, idk what to do <.>
If you actually read this entire rant, I thank you
I am really in a sticky situation with my life and future aims, I currently work in a café as a shift manager and its okay, I manage to work pretty much full time hours and its fine, I just want more from life. After nearly dying to this awful disease I want to take the opportunity while I am OKAY to do things and to make memories/ adventures that maybe one day I wont be able to do if I go backwards again. 3 years ago I was pretty much dead so thats why I am so forward thinking and always looking for something to change my life and do.
Am I wrong in thinking this? should I have the attitude of just living a standard life while I am well and getting on with it and just looking for opportunities that will better my career prospects or should I look for opportunities that I will enjoy and never forget?
Do I have to wrong attitude? I feel like nobody can compare, when I try to explain to people how I feel about life and how my outlook is people just think I am living in the clouds and I should focus on doing "career focused shit" e.g get a good job and go on nice holidays etc.. but what about just travelling the world now or finding a job in another country or in a travel orientated role, a ski instructor for example? Like is my outlook wrong? I really just want to grab life and do so much, ive dont a bit of travelling while ive been well and im super appreciative for everything that I am able to do even though Crohns is a horrific disease every day I am so happy to just be alive and here.
So really I am asking should I quit this attitude of always wanting to do something adventurous? like quitting my job and travelling the world or applying for a job in another country for the summer? or should I focus on my life and "PLAN" for the future? Life is just so unpredictable and I dont want to get to an older age and think, FUCK why didn't I just do that, or go there? But then again I dont want to actually get to an old age and think why have I wasted all my money/time doing that and not planned ahead for the future. YANO? I just have this mentality that bad shit is gonna happen to me because what has happened in the past, I had a ruptured intestine a couple years ago and its changed my life for sure, this is why I think im so just pumped to take life and do whatever, but is it right?
I am also super like negative about my future and I just cant shift the "BAD shit is gonna happen again attitude" and its not right, I might be okay for a while, we all will be okay cus we STRONG as fuck, but yeah, idk what to do <.>
If you actually read this entire rant, I thank you