- Location
- Newcastle upon Tyne, UK
Hi Everyone
I have been watching support forums for a few years and not been brave enough to join. Even looking at other peoples posts gets me upset. I have struggled to come to terms with my UC diagnosis since 2006 and when in remission I always feel that its all still related to a fall I had a couple of months before the diagnosis and it won't come back - which inevitably it does! Which is ridiculous but it's true.
I had a 3 year gap when I had no symptoms and I was well, so stopped my meds. Which then flared it again and I ended up in hospital. Over the last 2 years I've barely been well and felt rotten. I've seen more Prednisalone, the usual Mesalazine and enemas and suppositories than I care to think about and a few hospital admissions thrown in for good measure.
What was then very upsetting (and sets me away again), was that I started on Azathioprine last year after another hospital admission. It went well to start with, then gave me the worst case of acne. This got worse and worse and I was covered on my face, back and arms with horrible teenage red pussy spots and cists. To the point of not wanting to go outside or to work, as people would stare at me, nudge each other and point. I recall one time, being at a posh ice cream parlour and having to hold my husband back after he saw a guy whispering to his wife about my face and pointing. I have never felt so depressed.
My doc stopped the Azathioprine after 4 months and couldn't apologise enough (he had only seen it happen once before). and referred me to a Dermatologist who gave me Roaccutane. I'm still taking this and the acne has massively improved but not gone yet. On increasing the dose of this, it has flared my UC yet again.
I'm so down and fed up again as I feel rotten, I'm back on Pred and tomorrow I have yet another flexi sig prior to getting a date to start Infliximab. I have read the side effects of this and am scared after what Azathioprine did to me.
Just writing it down is a kind a therapy, but I'd been keen to hear from anyone with experience or Infliximab or just anyone really.
Thanks for listening. x
I have been watching support forums for a few years and not been brave enough to join. Even looking at other peoples posts gets me upset. I have struggled to come to terms with my UC diagnosis since 2006 and when in remission I always feel that its all still related to a fall I had a couple of months before the diagnosis and it won't come back - which inevitably it does! Which is ridiculous but it's true.
I had a 3 year gap when I had no symptoms and I was well, so stopped my meds. Which then flared it again and I ended up in hospital. Over the last 2 years I've barely been well and felt rotten. I've seen more Prednisalone, the usual Mesalazine and enemas and suppositories than I care to think about and a few hospital admissions thrown in for good measure.
What was then very upsetting (and sets me away again), was that I started on Azathioprine last year after another hospital admission. It went well to start with, then gave me the worst case of acne. This got worse and worse and I was covered on my face, back and arms with horrible teenage red pussy spots and cists. To the point of not wanting to go outside or to work, as people would stare at me, nudge each other and point. I recall one time, being at a posh ice cream parlour and having to hold my husband back after he saw a guy whispering to his wife about my face and pointing. I have never felt so depressed.
My doc stopped the Azathioprine after 4 months and couldn't apologise enough (he had only seen it happen once before). and referred me to a Dermatologist who gave me Roaccutane. I'm still taking this and the acne has massively improved but not gone yet. On increasing the dose of this, it has flared my UC yet again.
I'm so down and fed up again as I feel rotten, I'm back on Pred and tomorrow I have yet another flexi sig prior to getting a date to start Infliximab. I have read the side effects of this and am scared after what Azathioprine did to me.
Just writing it down is a kind a therapy, but I'd been keen to hear from anyone with experience or Infliximab or just anyone really.
Thanks for listening. x
