I got the first symtoms in September 2012. I thought it was cus i was stressed in a tough period at work. I went to my doc in May 2013. When i couldnt stand the pain anymore and the syptoms only got worse.
I got diagnosed in June 1013. And i started right away with Humira.
And now i am very depressed. I dont feel like myselfe. Every day is a struggle.
I cant work anymore cus i dont belive in myselfe.
If i meet my friends i would only start to cry.
I get easily upset and mad. So I fight often with my family.
Never felt so alone before.
And the days of staying in bed instead of get up and live happens more often.
If i have on good day.(one out of then) i need to sleep for three days.
I have tried to brake out of it. Meet my friends often. My boss made my work easy. So i only work 20%.
But nothing seem to help. And i really dont want to start ob anti depress medication.
Its so strange. Cus before all this i was a positive yes person who everyone enjoyed hanging out with. And now its all gone.
Hi gerdy, I'm so sorry to see that you are struggling with this.
I've not heard of humira having effects on mood or mental well being, but having crohns certainly can.
You've only been diagnosed a few months, and so the reality of what's happening is likely to only now be truely hitting home. I understand how devastating it can be to go from being independent and active to suddenly being very sick and feeling as though you can't do anything. I was just starting a nursing degree when my crohns got severe and now I cant work or study at all. Please know that you aren't alone, we understand what it's like to be going through this.
There is no shame in what you are feeling. There is also no shame in going to your doctor and speaking to them about how you are feeling. They may suggest antidepressants, but these are just one of a number of options. You don't have to put up with this, you didn't ask for any of it and you don't have to suffer in silence. Take a leap, if you fall, we'll catch you.