Ok here's another moan!!! When are things gonna start going smoothly for me?! I know there are worse things that can happen but I've had such a rough few years and even things that are supposed to be happy are just shadowed by crappy things happening!
I'm gonna give my list of rubbish things over the past few years so you can understand why I'm so upset about the latest events (cos on their own they look a bit pathetic):
Ok so 2 years ago in the SAME MONTH:
I split with my fiance of 8 years
My sister was diagnosed with cancer
My parents disowned me for a short period of time for starting a relationship with my current man (who thankfully they now love, but at the time missed my ex fiance)
I had exams during this month (which thankfully I passed)
I started getting my first crohns symptoms
My heart condition went haywire and I started fainting ALL the time.
My mum was then in hospital with her COPD, again.
Then last summer after yr 4 of med school (the hardest yr of med school) I went on my medical elective to Bali (for 8 weeks)..... had to come home after 2 weeks cos my best friend back here died. Obv I was most upset about my friend, my elective doesnt really matter, but its just an example of how something that was supposed to be really good wasnt.......
2 weeks after she died, my other best friend stabbed me in the back and totally betrayed me with a girl I dont get along with (this is the only girl I dont get along with - and lots of people dont like her at all).
I was hospitalised during this years final exams (as ive moaned about a lot) and by some sheer miracle I've passed.... then instead of being able to celebrate I ended up back in hospital again!!!
Im pretty sure there are more but those are the big events......
So to now........
It's my graduation ball in 2 weeks, I only get one and Ive worked hard for 5 years at med school..... and my boyfriend (whose ticket we've already paid for) is on call that weekend and no one is willing to swap with him.... so it looks like I'm going for the WHOLE weekend away without him - I just want to cry. He's also oncall on the day of my graduation itself in July, but theres more time for him to get that off.....
I'm just so upset, why can't something properly good happen just for once?!?!?! :depressed:
I know in comparison to the above stuff it's so small..... but it means so much to me.........
I'm gonna give my list of rubbish things over the past few years so you can understand why I'm so upset about the latest events (cos on their own they look a bit pathetic):
Ok so 2 years ago in the SAME MONTH:
I split with my fiance of 8 years
My sister was diagnosed with cancer
My parents disowned me for a short period of time for starting a relationship with my current man (who thankfully they now love, but at the time missed my ex fiance)
I had exams during this month (which thankfully I passed)
I started getting my first crohns symptoms
My heart condition went haywire and I started fainting ALL the time.
My mum was then in hospital with her COPD, again.
Then last summer after yr 4 of med school (the hardest yr of med school) I went on my medical elective to Bali (for 8 weeks)..... had to come home after 2 weeks cos my best friend back here died. Obv I was most upset about my friend, my elective doesnt really matter, but its just an example of how something that was supposed to be really good wasnt.......
2 weeks after she died, my other best friend stabbed me in the back and totally betrayed me with a girl I dont get along with (this is the only girl I dont get along with - and lots of people dont like her at all).
I was hospitalised during this years final exams (as ive moaned about a lot) and by some sheer miracle I've passed.... then instead of being able to celebrate I ended up back in hospital again!!!
Im pretty sure there are more but those are the big events......
So to now........
It's my graduation ball in 2 weeks, I only get one and Ive worked hard for 5 years at med school..... and my boyfriend (whose ticket we've already paid for) is on call that weekend and no one is willing to swap with him.... so it looks like I'm going for the WHOLE weekend away without him - I just want to cry. He's also oncall on the day of my graduation itself in July, but theres more time for him to get that off.....
I'm just so upset, why can't something properly good happen just for once?!?!?! :depressed:
I know in comparison to the above stuff it's so small..... but it means so much to me.........