Hey....I know I haven't really been around offering support, so part of me feels I shouldn't be requesting it, however I just need somewhere to turn right now. The past few weeks i've been getting up off my butt doing things, spending some time away from the computer. I have, however, been reading most of the posts, and piping in here and there when I feel I have something to add.
Anyways, about two weeks ago I finally woke up one day and realized that I didn't hurt anymore...after nearly 6 months of feeling rotten every minute, of every day. I could touch my stomach without wincing, my stools became normal, i was having one or two a day, they didn't hurt, it was lovely! I even started back at work a little over a week ago....I started with just one shift, and it went fairly well. I was tired, it did take a lot out of me, but I was optimistic. I wasn't able to work again for a week after that first shift due to too many appointments, but I was feeling so great last week, that when they offered me two shifts in a row I thought I could manage.
Well....not so much. Last night was my second shift in a row, and it's done me in. I had D on my way home this am (i was working nights, as they're a little easier), I've had a few more episodes today, i've put myself back on boost, I had to skip a wedding shower for a friend, and the pain is back. I feel like i've gone backwards a couple of weeks. I'm so frustrated, I just wish it didn't have to be such a stinking slow freaking process, I just want to get back at it! And now that i've overdone it, I'm worried about how long it will be until i'm able to get back at it again. Hopefully I can get over this in a day or two, but i'm thinking this is what we call a flare........ Anyways....thanks for reading, just a vent i guess.
Anyways, about two weeks ago I finally woke up one day and realized that I didn't hurt anymore...after nearly 6 months of feeling rotten every minute, of every day. I could touch my stomach without wincing, my stools became normal, i was having one or two a day, they didn't hurt, it was lovely! I even started back at work a little over a week ago....I started with just one shift, and it went fairly well. I was tired, it did take a lot out of me, but I was optimistic. I wasn't able to work again for a week after that first shift due to too many appointments, but I was feeling so great last week, that when they offered me two shifts in a row I thought I could manage.
Well....not so much. Last night was my second shift in a row, and it's done me in. I had D on my way home this am (i was working nights, as they're a little easier), I've had a few more episodes today, i've put myself back on boost, I had to skip a wedding shower for a friend, and the pain is back. I feel like i've gone backwards a couple of weeks. I'm so frustrated, I just wish it didn't have to be such a stinking slow freaking process, I just want to get back at it! And now that i've overdone it, I'm worried about how long it will be until i'm able to get back at it again. Hopefully I can get over this in a day or two, but i'm thinking this is what we call a flare........ Anyways....thanks for reading, just a vent i guess.