Hello and welcome!
Completely understand about the bag situation (never goes with my shoes anyway) and sorry to hear with the amount you are dealing with. I honestly wish you the best of luck, and hope you find some stability soon. I find that joke books, books with pictures of paintings and photos are good to have near the throne. Or get family and to shout encouragement through the toilet door!
Let us know how the next trial goes, fingers crossed for you x