Hello to whoever is reading this right now. I received my Crohn's diagnosis about a month ago and have been on (inadequate) treatment since. I have plans to seek adequate treatment, but that's not nearly what is bothering me right now. What's bothering me is people. Specifically, people who either don't care to know about or understand my illness or just don't have the capacity to understand. In general, I feel very hurt and lonely. There have been rumors being spread by so-called "friends" that I've lost weight because I'm using drugs and that I'm using the illness as a cover for a drug addiction and am faking. Probably got all those colonoscopy and CT pictures from the Internet, right? Another thing I can't stand is being told I just want pity or attention. I want neither, I couldn't care less about either one of those things. What I want is genuine support from those who care and are close to me. It's just so hard to find. I barely know who my friends are anymore. I'm scared they'll all just ditch me because it gets to be too much, especially since my particular presentation can be quite dangerous and I worry it'll just scare everyone away.
I guess I'm just looking for someone to talk to who understands. I feel very lonely and lost and depressed and isolated and outside influence is not helping me right now.
I guess I'm just looking for someone to talk to who understands. I feel very lonely and lost and depressed and isolated and outside influence is not helping me right now.