I am in need of some advice… not sure where to start this though so I am sorry if this gets a little jumbled up and confusing.
Over the past year I have had a pretty rough time. I was extremely sick for the past 2 years, I won’t go into too many details but I was diagnosed with Crohn’s in March of 2012 and still haven’t quite been able to cope with the fact that I will deal with this for the rest of my life and there is a possibility that it could be passed on to my kids. Before the diagnosis I had been depressed for sometime although had just told myself that I was just a little down and if I could just pull myself out of it I would be fine. Since then I have been trying to blame the increasing depression on the fact that my disease interferes with the way my body absorbs the vitamins and nutrients in the food I eat and that was why I am always tired and down. While I am sure that is part of it, that doesn’t fully explain it. I believe when you are driving home from work and casually think about driving off a bridge like it’s no big deal it goes far beyond being tired and a little down. While I know I would never do that now because of my family I do have a history of suicide attempts and have in the past been on medication for depression and adult diagnosed ADD.
Recently my temper has been extremely short and I seem to blow up at any little thing… my husband has “jokingly” made the comment more than once that I need to go to anger management. He mentioned it again the other night, he said I know you think I am joking but I am not. I told him it wouldn’t do any good because I know what they will say and he won’t like it. See my husband has a very big problem with all the anti-depression medication and things like that. He believes that people today are over medicated because they tell their doctor they are depressed, the doctor hands them a prescription and sends them on their way because they don’t want to deal with the deeper issue of what is really making them feel this way. While I do believe that sometimes that is the case I don’t fully agree with his stance on the medications. He has said before that he doesn’t want to have to wonder if I am smiling because I am happy or if it’s because I am doped up.
Please understand I know how this sounds and I promise he isn’t as big a jerk as this makes it sound. He is dead set against this type of medication unless the doctor can provide a blood test showing that there is a chemical imbalance that needs the medication. Unfortunately from what I have seen they don’t run tests like that… they have done research to identify the disease but don’t have a specific lab test they can run to show the problem.
I guess my point is that I don’t know what to do here… how do I get the help I need without disregarding his feeling on the issue? What do I do here? :confused2:
Thanks for the advice and again please don't get angry and tell me that my hubby is an ass... he really is a great guy who has taken great care of me through all this.
Over the past year I have had a pretty rough time. I was extremely sick for the past 2 years, I won’t go into too many details but I was diagnosed with Crohn’s in March of 2012 and still haven’t quite been able to cope with the fact that I will deal with this for the rest of my life and there is a possibility that it could be passed on to my kids. Before the diagnosis I had been depressed for sometime although had just told myself that I was just a little down and if I could just pull myself out of it I would be fine. Since then I have been trying to blame the increasing depression on the fact that my disease interferes with the way my body absorbs the vitamins and nutrients in the food I eat and that was why I am always tired and down. While I am sure that is part of it, that doesn’t fully explain it. I believe when you are driving home from work and casually think about driving off a bridge like it’s no big deal it goes far beyond being tired and a little down. While I know I would never do that now because of my family I do have a history of suicide attempts and have in the past been on medication for depression and adult diagnosed ADD.
Recently my temper has been extremely short and I seem to blow up at any little thing… my husband has “jokingly” made the comment more than once that I need to go to anger management. He mentioned it again the other night, he said I know you think I am joking but I am not. I told him it wouldn’t do any good because I know what they will say and he won’t like it. See my husband has a very big problem with all the anti-depression medication and things like that. He believes that people today are over medicated because they tell their doctor they are depressed, the doctor hands them a prescription and sends them on their way because they don’t want to deal with the deeper issue of what is really making them feel this way. While I do believe that sometimes that is the case I don’t fully agree with his stance on the medications. He has said before that he doesn’t want to have to wonder if I am smiling because I am happy or if it’s because I am doped up.
Please understand I know how this sounds and I promise he isn’t as big a jerk as this makes it sound. He is dead set against this type of medication unless the doctor can provide a blood test showing that there is a chemical imbalance that needs the medication. Unfortunately from what I have seen they don’t run tests like that… they have done research to identify the disease but don’t have a specific lab test they can run to show the problem.
I guess my point is that I don’t know what to do here… how do I get the help I need without disregarding his feeling on the issue? What do I do here? :confused2:
Thanks for the advice and again please don't get angry and tell me that my hubby is an ass... he really is a great guy who has taken great care of me through all this.