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just ranting
Hi, how is everyone. this is my first post - hopefully it is somewhat readable. I was diagnosed with CD dec 05 and was a mess in dec/jan. i was told to take time off work and was too proud. pulled myself together for feb/mar - but something was still affecting my ability to put my all in my work. I am a dental assistant - on my feet all day. which is hard to do when my knees or ankles are inflammed, which is what happened at the end of april.
anyways i just started a 6 wk leave from work to focus on my health, both physically and mentally. it is a struggle to come to this point, i feel like i have lost control of my life. finacially (all those darn pills), mentally and physically. i just started an antidepressant, but just waiting for it to kick in
another thing i need to think about is where to go with my job. I am not sure how crohn's is in the long run - but from what i have lived with so far in the last 6 months is that there is a lot of ups and downs. i get dizzy, throw up, joint pain in my legs, and all the other fun stuff. Is this how it is for most ppl? if that is the case, i need to find something else to do. i have no idea where to start - depression doesn't help any either. i was positive for a bit - but i think i pulled myself together because i felt that was what everyone wanted to see, you know. i should call a counsellor - but again, i am too proud. or maybe i am afraid. i find when i am alone my real feelings come out - but in front of my dr i can be as happy as a cat. is it normal to feel so lost when you find out you have a chronic illness?
anyways, sorry for the rant. Thanks for listening.
Cheers
Hi, how is everyone. this is my first post - hopefully it is somewhat readable. I was diagnosed with CD dec 05 and was a mess in dec/jan. i was told to take time off work and was too proud. pulled myself together for feb/mar - but something was still affecting my ability to put my all in my work. I am a dental assistant - on my feet all day. which is hard to do when my knees or ankles are inflammed, which is what happened at the end of april.
anyways i just started a 6 wk leave from work to focus on my health, both physically and mentally. it is a struggle to come to this point, i feel like i have lost control of my life. finacially (all those darn pills), mentally and physically. i just started an antidepressant, but just waiting for it to kick in
another thing i need to think about is where to go with my job. I am not sure how crohn's is in the long run - but from what i have lived with so far in the last 6 months is that there is a lot of ups and downs. i get dizzy, throw up, joint pain in my legs, and all the other fun stuff. Is this how it is for most ppl? if that is the case, i need to find something else to do. i have no idea where to start - depression doesn't help any either. i was positive for a bit - but i think i pulled myself together because i felt that was what everyone wanted to see, you know. i should call a counsellor - but again, i am too proud. or maybe i am afraid. i find when i am alone my real feelings come out - but in front of my dr i can be as happy as a cat. is it normal to feel so lost when you find out you have a chronic illness?
anyways, sorry for the rant. Thanks for listening.
Cheers