Ya! It's the eve of leaving for Florida! I'm so ready to get home. Will be leaving bright and early tomorrow morning as we hope to make it to the south side of Atlanta, about 10 hours of driving. This will be the longest I've driven on my own. It shouldn't be a problem. With the way I'm feeling, I'm confident I'll make it without problem.
Reflecting back on the writing done, this has been therapeutic for me. It's as good as seeing a therapist.
For the last couple of years I've been able to regularly make myself well to the stomach. The main problems have been, pin pointing what has been making myself ill, avoiding temptations foods/ keeping on the straight and narrow path, and not being entirely pleased with results/ not enough energy, not appearing healthy enough/ basically not having enough patience.
There is also the problem of running into what I refer to as minor causes of stomach/ health issues. The recent episode with the organic chocolate is a good example. I will never know what caused the chocolate to cause me to have poor energy. In the past I could over analysis possible causes. Now, I realize it's not something to overly worry over. In all likely hood the selling company is using a cheaper processing method that saves them money but leaves some substances in the chocolate that cause health issues for me. Most people that eat the chocolate wouldn't think twice about it. For me, with poorer energy levels, it's something I feel.
Well, I'm largely well to the gut at this point. I don't know how long I've been well to the stomach, but I'd guess it's been around two weeks. This raises another issue, when to know when I'm well enough to be reliable? I know to be as healthy as I wanted will take months if not years. I have a good idea of what I can be when the gut is healed up.
Now though i want to be less of a perfectionist. I want to have a good safe diet planned out, and have good energy levels, levels that can take me through out the day easily. From there I can push off into the world.