Hello everyone, my name is David Helman and I just wanted to introduce myself to this forum and tell a little bit of my story.
I am 29 years old and a software engineer in north carolina. In middle/high school I basically had an identity crisis where I was living between a nerd and a Jock. I am very 'hardcore' in everything that I do and I have always striven to be the best. I have lived on both sides of these personalities, from competing in video game tournaments for money, to wrestling and powerlifting. I finally settled down on being a mix of both.
I currently an am avid video and board gamer as this is who I always was, but I still try to stay in shape and workout as much as I can. During my wrestling days, I had an injury to my lower back which now leaves me with permanent back damage and chronic back pain. I still workout all the time, take healthy shakes, vitamins, l-glutamine and am generally a very healthy person. I don't smoke or drink and in the past I never went to the doctor. I started noticing some stomach issues 2 years ago. I had pain and other strange symptoms. I started going to the doctor to figure it out and they said nothing was wrong and I was super healthy.
The pain started getting worse and I noticed that I had problems when I tried some diet drinks and artificial sweeteners. The doctors diagnosed me with IBS and put me on a high fiber diet. Things got better for a bit, but then it all started. My father passed away, and my job became more stressful. At the same time, my mother started to show symptoms of Dementia or worse. This stress took a toll on my health and my marriage, which in turn made things worse. The high fiber diet started making me have intense pain, blood in the stool, weight loss, and extreme exhaustion. This put me in the ER and an eventual path to diagnose me with Crohn's last year.
Since getting out of the hospital a year ago, nothing has been the same. During flare ups I am on Budesonide and my normal maintenance medicine is Pentasa. I am tired all the time, even if I get 9 hours of sleep, I can barely force myself to go to the gym as everything is harder. I have lost weight and my life seems so much harder to do anything, my willpower is gone and it is hard to get up to go to work some days. I just changed jobs and bought a new house and I am living in a hotel and my wife can't be in the hotel with me because we have cats and they don't allow cats. The stress of all these changes triggered another flare up. I just recently got over it and am trying to get healthy again but it is so hard to eat or do anything.
I don't know how you people have been able to deal with this disease for 5, 10, or 15+ years. I have only had it for 1 and it has made my life miserable. My entire old way of life is gone and I am still trying to figure how to alter my lifestyle to have a happy life. I know it is cliche, but I feel like an old man. I have 2 chonic illnesses (back pain, and Crohn's) and to top it off, my family needs me to be the most stable one. My mother is losing her mind, my brother is going through a divorce, I just changed jobs, my wife is having our first child and stress triggers my flare ups. Ironic isn't it?
I have always been emotionally strong and stable, but this is getting to be too much to bear, I need to join these forums and a support group to help. I know my story isn't unique, and I know all of you must have similar stories, I just want to learn from your wisdom and experience because I don't know how it can be done on your own.
Thanks and hello everyone!
David
I am 29 years old and a software engineer in north carolina. In middle/high school I basically had an identity crisis where I was living between a nerd and a Jock. I am very 'hardcore' in everything that I do and I have always striven to be the best. I have lived on both sides of these personalities, from competing in video game tournaments for money, to wrestling and powerlifting. I finally settled down on being a mix of both.
I currently an am avid video and board gamer as this is who I always was, but I still try to stay in shape and workout as much as I can. During my wrestling days, I had an injury to my lower back which now leaves me with permanent back damage and chronic back pain. I still workout all the time, take healthy shakes, vitamins, l-glutamine and am generally a very healthy person. I don't smoke or drink and in the past I never went to the doctor. I started noticing some stomach issues 2 years ago. I had pain and other strange symptoms. I started going to the doctor to figure it out and they said nothing was wrong and I was super healthy.
The pain started getting worse and I noticed that I had problems when I tried some diet drinks and artificial sweeteners. The doctors diagnosed me with IBS and put me on a high fiber diet. Things got better for a bit, but then it all started. My father passed away, and my job became more stressful. At the same time, my mother started to show symptoms of Dementia or worse. This stress took a toll on my health and my marriage, which in turn made things worse. The high fiber diet started making me have intense pain, blood in the stool, weight loss, and extreme exhaustion. This put me in the ER and an eventual path to diagnose me with Crohn's last year.
Since getting out of the hospital a year ago, nothing has been the same. During flare ups I am on Budesonide and my normal maintenance medicine is Pentasa. I am tired all the time, even if I get 9 hours of sleep, I can barely force myself to go to the gym as everything is harder. I have lost weight and my life seems so much harder to do anything, my willpower is gone and it is hard to get up to go to work some days. I just changed jobs and bought a new house and I am living in a hotel and my wife can't be in the hotel with me because we have cats and they don't allow cats. The stress of all these changes triggered another flare up. I just recently got over it and am trying to get healthy again but it is so hard to eat or do anything.
I don't know how you people have been able to deal with this disease for 5, 10, or 15+ years. I have only had it for 1 and it has made my life miserable. My entire old way of life is gone and I am still trying to figure how to alter my lifestyle to have a happy life. I know it is cliche, but I feel like an old man. I have 2 chonic illnesses (back pain, and Crohn's) and to top it off, my family needs me to be the most stable one. My mother is losing her mind, my brother is going through a divorce, I just changed jobs, my wife is having our first child and stress triggers my flare ups. Ironic isn't it?
I have always been emotionally strong and stable, but this is getting to be too much to bear, I need to join these forums and a support group to help. I know my story isn't unique, and I know all of you must have similar stories, I just want to learn from your wisdom and experience because I don't know how it can be done on your own.
Thanks and hello everyone!
David