Hey all,
My name is Ayana. I just came out a few months ago. I've struggled with accepting the fact that im gay because I am Christian and most of my family is (like 50 people in my fam on my moms side), and i had been told countless times by some that it's wrong or I'll go to hell if I'm gay, so for 7 years I would realize more and more that I liked women and i would loose more and more interest in men, for many reasons, i would tell myself i was wrong and just kept going back to men. I was never happy, anyways, now I am the happiest , I am talking with this amazing young woman i met a little while ago, she's gorgeous, down to earth, and sweet as can be, unfortunately she is dealing with a battle of her own but, she is one tough cookie and i support her as much as i can from a distance.
so, i have had crohn's for 9 years this October, i have had 2 major surgeries: a stricture plasti of my terminal ileum and a resection of my sigmoid colon (there's not much left of that part lol). I have been on quite my fair share of medications. Used to be on 28 pills a day years ago, currently I get my Remicade infusion, take nexium, azathioprine, iron infusions, oxycodone(for severe pain tthat i have had everyday since a couple months after my second surgery, freshmen yr of college), and now b12 injections(i really don't like those i get so nervous everytime i have to do them). I am working on getting off the oxycodone, since i have been on them for 2 and a half years or longer, its a challenge. I am concerned that I am getting OBD(opioid bowel dysfunction), so it's good that I am coming off them soonish. I have a ton of moderate to severe nerve damage from my surgeries, im in pain everyday and we are working on getting my insurance to cover Cymbalta, which has helped a good amount of patients w crohn's disease w nerve damage. so i pray my insurance will end up covering it. hmmm, other than that, there's just a bunch of craziness and life, i try to stay positive
My name is Ayana. I just came out a few months ago. I've struggled with accepting the fact that im gay because I am Christian and most of my family is (like 50 people in my fam on my moms side), and i had been told countless times by some that it's wrong or I'll go to hell if I'm gay, so for 7 years I would realize more and more that I liked women and i would loose more and more interest in men, for many reasons, i would tell myself i was wrong and just kept going back to men. I was never happy, anyways, now I am the happiest , I am talking with this amazing young woman i met a little while ago, she's gorgeous, down to earth, and sweet as can be, unfortunately she is dealing with a battle of her own but, she is one tough cookie and i support her as much as i can from a distance.
so, i have had crohn's for 9 years this October, i have had 2 major surgeries: a stricture plasti of my terminal ileum and a resection of my sigmoid colon (there's not much left of that part lol). I have been on quite my fair share of medications. Used to be on 28 pills a day years ago, currently I get my Remicade infusion, take nexium, azathioprine, iron infusions, oxycodone(for severe pain tthat i have had everyday since a couple months after my second surgery, freshmen yr of college), and now b12 injections(i really don't like those i get so nervous everytime i have to do them). I am working on getting off the oxycodone, since i have been on them for 2 and a half years or longer, its a challenge. I am concerned that I am getting OBD(opioid bowel dysfunction), so it's good that I am coming off them soonish. I have a ton of moderate to severe nerve damage from my surgeries, im in pain everyday and we are working on getting my insurance to cover Cymbalta, which has helped a good amount of patients w crohn's disease w nerve damage. so i pray my insurance will end up covering it. hmmm, other than that, there's just a bunch of craziness and life, i try to stay positive