So I had a reversal of my looop Ileostomy on the 19th January, so its been four weeks so far. I have been doing good, feeling great and I am desperate to get on a horses back again (keen equestrian) I have slowly started practising general yard work like putting on bridles and lifting light saddles and I have all the muscle for it and have not felt any problems, BUT...
The past week I just cant stop worrying about one end of my scar. It's all scabbed and healing nicely, but slightly above the right side there is a lump, to start with it was tiny, like a grain of sand, now its still small but definatley bigger, as in it covers half the scar.
I understand that my scar wont be perfectly flat but I cant help but hear "hernia" running through my head and its scaring me..
I showed my mum and she thinks its nothing to worry about and just wait until I next see my nurse to see what she thinks.
The main thing is, because of this lump im scared to do anything. Im meant to slowly start helping out at my stables again but im scared to pick up even the lightest of saddles now that this lumps turned up, I feel as if I am ruining everything. In less than Three weeks im meant to be having my first riding lesson and I can not wait, I could cry im so excited and im finding it hard to wait that long. But at the back of my head im nervous that its too early.
A few nights ago I fully broke down because I hate "taking it easy" and my life is nothing without horses, and if this is a hernia I will be out of the saddle for even longer and I cant handle that.
The past week I just cant stop worrying about one end of my scar. It's all scabbed and healing nicely, but slightly above the right side there is a lump, to start with it was tiny, like a grain of sand, now its still small but definatley bigger, as in it covers half the scar.
I understand that my scar wont be perfectly flat but I cant help but hear "hernia" running through my head and its scaring me..
I showed my mum and she thinks its nothing to worry about and just wait until I next see my nurse to see what she thinks.
The main thing is, because of this lump im scared to do anything. Im meant to slowly start helping out at my stables again but im scared to pick up even the lightest of saddles now that this lumps turned up, I feel as if I am ruining everything. In less than Three weeks im meant to be having my first riding lesson and I can not wait, I could cry im so excited and im finding it hard to wait that long. But at the back of my head im nervous that its too early.
A few nights ago I fully broke down because I hate "taking it easy" and my life is nothing without horses, and if this is a hernia I will be out of the saddle for even longer and I cant handle that.
