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- Jun 5, 2009
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- 64
After having my second child almost 8 years ago I have been plagued by the D everyday. I have collagenous colitis, a little different than most of you. I have been all sorts of medications, I am currently tapering off of pred, down to 5mg a day right now one more week to go. I go back to the GI on the 11th of Dec. they are thinking Imuran, did by blood test so now I am just waiting. I am scared most of the time because someone with my condition in particular should have gotten better after the entocort I took for a year straight. Imuran is thought to be the last line of defense, and I am just scared as he** what if it doesn't work? The GI doc has already told me it is this drug or deal with my current symptoms. who can just come to the realization that I am going to live the rest of my life feeling like crap, like i have no choice but to wake up and accept the fact that I have to go on in this life everyday feeling like I have food poisoning, as to this is what my disease does to me. No it's not going to kill me, nor does it increase my chances for cancer. Is that seriosly suppose to make me feel better, So I have to look forward to living a very long dreadful life. Most days I don't want to get out of bed, and if it weren't for my 2 children who need me to take care of them, I don't think I would get out of bed and face this pain. It has taken me away from my life, and when I look in the mirror, which I now avoid I don't see me, I see a stranger.