I hate having to go in public, but usually I don't have the luxury of waiting to get home.
At work is embarrassing as sometimes it can be noisy, so I either have to wait to be sure nobody else is around or wait for someone to active the hand dryer. Or sometimes depending on where I am flush and go at the same time.
If other people are near by I get paranoid about how many flushes I do. How much toilet paper I use (if it's a noise dispenser). How long I spend in there. How smelly it might be.
Basically going to the toilet can be traumatic.
At work I often feel like I'm being timed. As most times I'm gone for 10 minutes wait for the perfect time to go
Also I have to walk past loads of people to get to the toilet, and to walk past them is only on the route to the toilet, so I feel like people are noticing how often I go.
And then there's the stress of if you go in the toilet and it already stinks. I just know everyone will think it's me.
The same if the toilet is left in a mess. Something which is physically impossible for me to do, but I still feel I would always be the number one suspect.
On a couple of rare occasions I've had to go around friends houses which is also highly embarrassing as they live in one bedroom flats, where the walls are thin and the toilet is often next to the lounge. Just hope it's not gonna be noisy or smelly.
Even when I think I got away likely and the smell wasn't bad people have often made out like someone has died in the toilet. (insert embarrassed smiley here)
I've had so many toilet nightmares the past few years and I'm still not used to it. Most of the time it's a bigger deal to me than anyone else, but it's no fun.
I remember not long ago out shopping on my own and I suddenly got the urge to go. It's like I have a 5 minute warning. Then the only think I can think of is fine a toilet.
Luckily I've never had an accident, but when I do make it to the toilet it often feels like mission impossible and I just made it with literally 1 second to spare.
Even when I get in the cubicle racing to get my pants down, cover the seat with paper and put paper in the bowl to prevent any splash back.
Anyway on this occasion was the biggest nightmare as it was half term so kids off school. I tried Maccy D's first, but too many kids so not gonna happen.
Public toilet was locked. I didn't know the area that well so was starting to panic. First pub I went in, no toilet roll.
By this time I was getting desperate. Like a man possessed. Anyway after about maybe 10 minutes of marching through the crowds like a mad man I found another pub and decided I was going in no matter what.
The pub was like an old mans family pub. I'd say there was about 20 people inside that all looked at me as I marched straight through them to the toilet.
There was 1 cubicle and it wasn't the cleanest place I'd been in plus the actual toilet had a broken seat. And no lock on the bloody door!
I basically had to let loose while squatting and holding the door shut. Luckily nobody came in.
When I walked out through the people I just felt shame, but I wasn't gonna see any of them again to who cares.
None of them realised how traumatic those few minutes were back there while they're chilling drinking their beers
Another time that springs to mind is being caught in traffic then getting the sudden urge that felt like I had better find a toilet asap. Raced like a lunatic and pulled into the local ice rink.
Rushed straight pass the desk into the toilet. Half way through the lights went out and it was literally pitch black. I couldn't see a thing. Luckily I had my phone on my to use as a touch. They were timer activated lights
I was in a relationship for 5 years around the time I first started having crohns related symptoms.
Been single for 3 years now and had to turn down a few chances to stay over a girls house due to fear of needing the toilet and something going wrong.
Like one time at a friends when after going I discover the flusher doesn't work!!!
Now I always do a pre-flush to make sure that doesn't happen.
Too many bad toilet scenarios run through my head whenever I'm not at home.