When my doctor asked me "did you hear about Crohn's disease", I realized I had to face the least thing I want to know.
Diarrhea stared after a lot of antibiotics taken, when I was still a sophomore student in 2011 and began dating my first girlfriend. I thought everything was ok when the symptom was gone. Yes, it had been ok, until it came back in early 2012.
At the beginning, the only thing I cared was my career, and I was as hardworking as before(revising my thesis in a hospital bed and giving presentation during the interval of medical infusion). I never imagined a disease can change one's life so exhaustively. Bellyache, diarrhea, various complications and what's the worst, fear, make me suffered. Whenever I suffer from the physical symptoms, I fear more about my future sufferings.
There are only several in one million get this disease in China. I wondered many times, why me? None of my families or relatives have such disease. Why I am picked, to endure these and those? My future plan was smashed, I cannot pursue what I want as before, even cannot live as other common people.
Last night, I was in tears when I read the textmesseges from my ex-girlfriend. She recalled when she firstly had some feelings for me: it was a sunny afternoon, we met in the college, and she saw the 20-year-old guy smiled at her, smiled, like the warm sunshine.
I begged her to promise me that never forget the "me". I was healthy and optimistic, and believed I can do everything if I try my best...
Diarrhea stared after a lot of antibiotics taken, when I was still a sophomore student in 2011 and began dating my first girlfriend. I thought everything was ok when the symptom was gone. Yes, it had been ok, until it came back in early 2012.
At the beginning, the only thing I cared was my career, and I was as hardworking as before(revising my thesis in a hospital bed and giving presentation during the interval of medical infusion). I never imagined a disease can change one's life so exhaustively. Bellyache, diarrhea, various complications and what's the worst, fear, make me suffered. Whenever I suffer from the physical symptoms, I fear more about my future sufferings.
There are only several in one million get this disease in China. I wondered many times, why me? None of my families or relatives have such disease. Why I am picked, to endure these and those? My future plan was smashed, I cannot pursue what I want as before, even cannot live as other common people.
Last night, I was in tears when I read the textmesseges from my ex-girlfriend. She recalled when she firstly had some feelings for me: it was a sunny afternoon, we met in the college, and she saw the 20-year-old guy smiled at her, smiled, like the warm sunshine.
I begged her to promise me that never forget the "me". I was healthy and optimistic, and believed I can do everything if I try my best...