I've had the dreaded crohns for over a decade now. I thought it would get easier and less confusing in time. It's only gotten harder. When I was young I didn't have the added pressure of responsibility. Taking care of someone else while trying to take care of me. I just kind of let my self go by the way side for my family. I wouldn't change it for anything. It's hard to watch my family see me decline at a rapid pace. They don't understand and they don't know how to help. With three young children that is no surprise. In time I hope they learn more and become more understanding. With my husband it is different. I see the weight of my illness in his eyes. It's so unfair to him. It's added pressure that he is the only bread winner. The financial burden of this is heavy. It's not cheap. Now I'm beginning to wonder if we are strong enough to survive this. He is a good husband but this would drive a wedge between any good couple. The love is there. I know the love is still in us. Is it right to hang on so hard to something you feel is right but you don't want to hurt someone else. Does that person deserve to suffer too?