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Stress, Anxiety and/or Depression

Hello!

I am currently struggling with some health anxiety issues and so I was just curious how many here suffer from stress, anxiety and/or depression?
If you do, what coping strategies if any do you find useful?
How many here are on some kind of anti-depressant? anti-anxiety medication?

There is a mental aspect to every physical disease. How we react to disease and how we cope with disease vary greatly from person to person. For example, the hair loss that some with IBD get, may not bother some people very much. However, the hair loss in someone else may make them feel depressed and more ill.
On the other hand there can be physical effects from mental illness. For example, with some mental illnesses you may not eat, or take care of yourself, very well which can cause physical problems.
 

Lynda Lynda

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My sister and I went to lunch on Thursday. We sat a long time and chatted. I ate my restaurant food. Two hours later I had to run to the restaurant restroom before I had an accident. This is embarrassing and makes me feel like not going out at all because I never know when the diarrhea is going to overcome me. My coping skills have been totally unhealthy as I feel that I might as well stay home, by the toilet, just in case I need to go to the bathroom. I have good days and bad days, as far as my colon is concerned. I have kept a food diary and that doesn't help. It is totally unpredictable. And I do not like to use restrooms in certain places where the restroom facility is not sanitized on a regular basis during the day, because back in 2015 I had C-diff. I suffer from Ulcerative Colitis and Major Depression and Anxiety. Thank You for listening. Lynda
 
I read that a lot of people who had C-difficile are traumatised from it and scared to take antibiotics as it may trigger another infection. So I totally understand you are not alone. It can be very aggressive and difficult to treat for some.
 

emmaaaargh

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I went to my GP about my worsening mental health a couple of weeks ago and got prescribed an anti-depressant. It looks like I have a whole host of issues (depression, GAD, OCD, possible panic disorder) but I got the distinct impression that they try hard not to just pin labels on you nowadays. I am struggling with appetite and finding the motivation to eat thanks to the depression, and the stress caused by all my university work isn't helping. On top of that, I'm still flaring, and can only wait and get worse until I see my GI in a month's time, which doesn't help my mood any!

So you're definitely not alone. In terms of coping strategies, I try to utilise short-term thinking: take things day by day, even hour by hour or minute by minute if I have to. This is hard for me, because I like to plan, but sometimes it's to my detriment and sets my anxiety in a spiral. Similarly, I try and remind myself not to borrow trouble: if something happens (like having an accident in public, say), then I'll deal with it then, instead of worrying about it so much that it prevents me from going outdoors. I'm on the waiting list for CBT to find some better coping strategies, but so far, those are the most effective for me.
 
Recently, I've begun Cognitive Behavioural Therapy/treatment for anxiety. I'm doing one hour sessions weekly. I did some counseling when I was initially diagnosed about 10 years ago, but it creeps back in with the unpredictability of this disease. Take care.
 
For me, when my thoughts overwhelm me, I turn to the internet and start researching. I have to believe that there is a "cure", so as all these thoughts flutter through my brain, I look them up and ask questions and try to find answers. I can see how this strategy may not work for other people, ignorance is definitely bliss, but it helps me. Knowing that I'm doing something, anything, to try to improve my situation is helpful.

Like right now, I've noticed that I'm having increased hair loss after starting a biologic a month ago. I've been worrying about it for a couple weeks, and finally went to the internet yesterday. I found out it could be a folic acid deficiency. So today I'm going to buy some supplements and spinach. LOL. They might do nothing. In reality, not much of my research has helped me physically, but it helps me mentally which is half the battle.
 

cmack

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I hope your hair gets better Callie. I like baby spinach the best. I often put 1/2 cup with a banana or other various fruits as a part of my daily smoothie. It turns it a green color, but still tastes pleasant. Good luck.
 
Thanks, cmack! I used to drink smoothies with spinach, but then I got this thing called Crohn's, and I can't drink smoothies anymore. LOL. I guess it's too much raw fruits and vegetables. I've turned to juicing which I can tolerate, but I'm sure I don't get nearly enough nutrients. Can't seem to win.
 

Lynda Lynda

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I want to thank everyone for sharing......it gives me comfort, as well as provides me with information I can use in my own life. :panda:
 

cmack

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Sorry to hear that Callie, juicing is a really healthy option too. Some people handle fiber a heck of a lot better than others. There have been times when I couldn't tolerate extra fiber in the past. I stuck to broths and vegetable juices, bland soups, also I used to add more organic soy milk to my diet, (It's something I have every day still, roughly 1 cup/day). It's just less than when I was relying on only liquids for nutrition. Eventually, I was able to add more and more fiber slowly. To go along with the extra fiber, I took several rounds of VSL#3 probiotics to help break the fiber down in my gut properly. It worked for me, maybe one day you will be having smoothies again. I never thought I would be able to. I really think the specific probiotic strains in VSL #3 are what caused the improvement in fiber tolerance for me. Sorry, really not mental health related, except if you count better physical health leading to a better state of mind.
 
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I don't deal with it. Don't know how or where to even begin. I don't want to talk about my illness over and over. I'm feeling better than I ever have and although that does help, I still have enough issues to frustrate the hell out of me on a daily basis.

I'm also taking enough medication that I really don't want to add to it. I am prone to panic attacks, so I do take an ativan when I need to, but that's about it.

I know NOT talking about it doesn't help, but for me... talking about it just makes me feel worse.
 
If you are facing with anxiety or depression then you are not alone in this problem. Millions of people suffers from depression or anxiety problem. But it does not means that there is no treatment for such problem. But this anxiety can also lead to several health issues like suffering from PE especially in men. Yes, this is very much true as anxiety can make suffer from other sexual problems also. However it should be cured immediately otherwise it can continue to damage further.
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I believe there is a hug correlation between mental health + physical health and nutrition. I am a Licensed Professional Counselor (LPC) and this very correlation has become my passion in my work. I suffer from anxiety myself and do have a prescription for Ativan, but I don't take it unless I'm absolutely overwhelmed because I think that working through anxiety on your own and proving to yourself that you can do it is so much more powerful.

I've done a food journal and am treating myself with nutrition as opposed to prescribed meds for both the anxiety and crohn's. It's definitely difficult and very frustrating. But, if you put in the time and effort to do your own research and trial and error, I'm confident you can feel some genuine improvements. Every little step counts and it's all worth it.

As for coping skills, a lot of CBT and mindfulness. Notice your negative thoughts, challenge them by replacing them with neutral statements (example: negative thought- I'm such a loser for having all these problems.; thought challenge- I have many stressors and I'm doing my best to work through all of them.), avoid judging yourself, give yourself a pep talk every day or every hour if you need to. Accept yourself for who you are and find gratitude wherever you can. Attitude is everything and you get to choose your attitude every day.
 
It's funny that I open this forum up with the intention of posting about this very subject and low and behold .. here it is .. the very first topic on my list!

I have been fighting depression for many years. Only recently I found out I had Crohn's and the GI said that from what he saw, it looked like it had been active for 10-15 years. (Yea, I know, I hate doctors and never dealt with the symptoms.)

Anyway, about the same time my husband was bitching about my memory and general funk, so after a few tests and doctor appointments .. I am now taking 25 mg Paxil every day. Problem is, after about 4 months of taking it, I can't tell any difference and have set an appointment with my doc to address it. My therapist agrees that it doesn't seems to be doing anything.

Speaking of therapist, seeing him every week for the last 3 months, we are just getting past what I call the, "I don't know you well enough to trust you" phase but last week I was in a really bad place and when I sat down, I pretty much told him that I needed to talk and he needed to listen.

I have been, I guess for the last month or so, in a kind of downward spiral with my mental health and to the point that I have seriously wished I was dead.

I know .. not a good place. But thanks to my hubby, I have been able to work through some of it. Enough anyway to not act on the feelings.

I mean damn .. I AM going through a lot of crap right now. My short term disability from work is coming to an end, My company is being bought out and the new group doesn't know how to handle me being on short term disability during the change over, it looks like I will have to go COBRA with the new companies insurance plan, but I don't know how much that is going to cost. I have a long term disability insurance plan that I am trying to get approved for but that is unknown and with no money coming in I am looking at loosing my insurance! And that is just the tip of the iceberg!

With all the unknowns, I guess it is no wonder I am barely treading water.

(I have discussed more about my personal life in this post than I have in the last 50 years of my life combined!) :yfaint:

I guess the point of my post is to (a) confirm that I think we all have issues with anxiety/depression, and (b) we each have to try to figure out what works best for us.

I am so glad that I found this forum when I was first diagnosed as it has helped me to realize that I am not alone! and that It will get better. but I am just like that little kid on his birthday ... I want it NOW! :ylol:

Thank you for "listening!"

Jay
 
It's funny that I open this forum up with the intention of posting about this very subject and low and behold .. here it is .. the very first topic on my list!



I have been fighting depression for many years. Only recently I found out I had Crohn's and the GI said that from what he saw, it looked like it had been active for 10-15 years. (Yea, I know, I hate doctors and never dealt with the symptoms.)



Anyway, about the same time my husband was bitching about my memory and general funk, so after a few tests and doctor appointments .. I am now taking 25 mg Paxil every day. Problem is, after about 4 months of taking it, I can't tell any difference and have set an appointment with my doc to address it. My therapist agrees that it doesn't seems to be doing anything.



Speaking of therapist, seeing him every week for the last 3 months, we are just getting past what I call the, "I don't know you well enough to trust you" phase but last week I was in a really bad place and when I sat down, I pretty much told him that I needed to talk and he needed to listen.



I have been, I guess for the last month or so, in a kind of downward spiral with my mental health and to the point that I have seriously wished I was dead.



I know .. not a good place. But thanks to my hubby, I have been able to work through some of it. Enough anyway to not act on the feelings.



I mean damn .. I AM going through a lot of crap right now. My short term disability from work is coming to an end, My company is being bought out and the new group doesn't know how to handle me being on short term disability during the change over, it looks like I will have to go COBRA with the new companies insurance plan, but I don't know how much that is going to cost. I have a long term disability insurance plan that I am trying to get approved for but that is unknown and with no money coming in I am looking at loosing my insurance! And that is just the tip of the iceberg!



With all the unknowns, I guess it is no wonder I am barely treading water.



(I have discussed more about my personal life in this post than I have in the last 50 years of my life combined!) :yfaint:



I guess the point of my post is to (a) confirm that I think we all have issues with anxiety/depression, and (b) we each have to try to figure out what works best for us.



I am so glad that I found this forum when I was first diagnosed as it has helped me to realize that I am not alone! and that It will get better. but I am just like that little kid on his birthday ... I want it NOW! :ylol:



Thank you for "listening!"



Jay


You won’t always be this lowJay, hang in there, I’m suffering with anxiety and stress too at the moment. I’m 55 and you’d think it gets easier but it’s not feeling like that today. Like you I’m taking short term break from work place and just concentrating on a day at a time and minding myself ... stress just puts me sitting on loo for the day so that’s not good ha ha
Anyway, no cure for you but a trouble shared can be a troubled halved, particularly when you know someone is ‘listening’ and reassure you this too will pass , just be kind and gentle with yourself. All the best.
Tradewinds
 

Lynda Lynda

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Hi Jay. Welcome.

Maybe you need a new medication(s)? Sometimes it takes a while to come up with the right "cocktail" of medications that work for a person. Also a correct diagnosis is important. I was misdiagnosed at one time and was prescribed the wrong medications for 6 years. Now with the correct diagnosis I am prescribed a combination of medications that work for me. I've been hospitalized for psychiatric reasons. For me I could never find a counselor that I "clicked" with. I learned so much at the hospital, from my peers and especially from an aftercare program. I learned CBT in a group setting in aftercare and at the hospital. CBT works.

Are there any kind of support groups in your area that you can participate in ?
I find great comfort in being around my "peers" ( meaning folks that are also suffering from psychiatric issues. ) Isolation is our enemy.
If you feel suicidal, please go to the Emergency Room.

I have also dealt in the past with a mental breakdown, Short Term Disability, a job loss and COBRA. Now I collect SSD benefits. You can PM me if you want to.

I was diagnosed with IBS in 1998. Diagnosed with UC in 2006. And diagnosed with Crohn's in 2018. I am 58 years old.

[ These are just my own personal opinions and experiences and are not meant to be any kind of medical advice. ]

You are an awesome person and worthy of living a full and happy life. Have hope and never give up.

Lynda 🌻
 
Im currently on amitriptyline and I take it before bed. I wasn’t sleeping.. my mind was constantly on. I was paranoid and nearly suffered a mental breakdown I’ve been on and off various anti anxiety—-antidepressants since I was 13. I should preface by saying that my anxiety issues 100% are due to the trama I experienced during the 8-10 years that I was without a diagnosis. And of course now with a diagnosis I have had to accept how abnormal my life has become. Crohn’s has affected me in every aspect of my life and has forced me to have to many some very tough decisions at 25.

For the longest time ever I tried to go the unmedicated route. No pain killers. No anxiety Meds. I wanted to have some form of control in my life—whereas every other aspect of my life was falling apart. At this point though I just know that all other forms of coping strategies is no longer working. Music doesn’t help. Writing doesn’t help anymore. Yoga is a no go. I had a step by step plan as to what to do when I was feeling a certain way and now I’m beyond what once worked.

I’m sleeping again which is nice but—-taking a pill right before bed is not helping me during the regular day.



Hello!

I am currently struggling with some health anxiety issues and so I was just curious how many here suffer from stress, anxiety and/or depression?
If you do, what coping strategies if any do you find useful?
How many here are on some kind of anti-depressant? anti-anxiety medication?

There is a mental aspect to every physical disease. How we react to disease and how we cope with disease vary greatly from person to person. For example, the hair loss that some with IBD get, may not bother some people very much. However, the hair loss in someone else may make them feel depressed and more ill.
On the other hand there can be physical effects from mental illness. For example, with some mental illnesses you may not eat, or take care of yourself, very well which can cause physical problems.
 

Lynda Lynda

Senior Member
MizzSarah, I understand a lot of the things you are talking about. I have been sick since 1997.
I am sorry that you have had to suffer through this at such a young age. I have no idea how that feels.
Are you seeing a Gastroenterologist regularly?
Do you see a doctor about your anxiety ?
Sending you lots of hope and support.
Keep us updated. 💕
Lynda
 

Lynda Lynda

Senior Member
Recently, I've begun Cognitive Behavioural Therapy/treatment for anxiety. I'm doing one hour sessions weekly. I did some counseling when I was initially diagnosed about 10 years ago, but it creeps back in with the unpredictability of this disease. Take care.
Hey, how did these sessions work out for you ?
I am considering seeing a counselor.
Hope you are feeling better. 🙂
Lynda.
 

Lynda Lynda

Senior Member
I went to my GP about my worsening mental health a couple of weeks ago and got prescribed an anti-depressant. It looks like I have a whole host of issues (depression, GAD, OCD, possible panic disorder) but I got the distinct impression that they try hard not to just pin labels on you nowadays. I am struggling with appetite and finding the motivation to eat thanks to the depression, and the stress caused by all my university work isn't helping. On top of that, I'm still flaring, and can only wait and get worse until I see my GI in a month's time, which doesn't help my mood any!

So you're definitely not alone. In terms of coping strategies, I try to utilise short-term thinking: take things day by day, even hour by hour or minute by minute if I have to. This is hard for me, because I like to plan, but sometimes it's to my detriment and sets my anxiety in a spiral. Similarly, I try and remind myself not to borrow trouble: if something happens (like having an accident in public, say), then I'll deal with it then, instead of worrying about it so much that it prevents me from going outdoors. I'm on the waiting list for CBT to find some better coping strategies, but so far, those are the most effective for me.
How are your studies going ?
Hope your anti-depressant is working out for you.
You sound like you have as good head on your shoulders.
Take care of yourself.
Lynda 🌻
 

Lynda Lynda

Senior Member
For me, when my thoughts overwhelm me, I turn to the internet and start researching. I have to believe that there is a "cure", so as all these thoughts flutter through my brain, I look them up and ask questions and try to find answers. I can see how this strategy may not work for other people, ignorance is definitely bliss, but it helps me. Knowing that I'm doing something, anything, to try to improve my situation is helpful.

Like right now, I've noticed that I'm having increased hair loss after starting a biologic a month ago. I've been worrying about it for a couple weeks, and finally went to the internet yesterday. I found out it could be a folic acid deficiency. So today I'm going to buy some supplements and spinach. LOL. They might do nothing. In reality, not much of my research has helped me physically, but it helps me mentally which is half the battle.
I hope the computer researching is working out for you 🙂
Unfortunately computer researching has the opposite effect on me....I PANIC 😳.
I want to learn, but I have to be careful about panicking.
Take Care and thanks for sharing with us.
Lynda 🐥
 

Lynda Lynda

Senior Member
I believe there is a hug correlation between mental health + physical health and nutrition. I am a Licensed Professional Counselor (LPC) and this very correlation has become my passion in my work. I suffer from anxiety myself and do have a prescription for Ativan, but I don't take it unless I'm absolutely overwhelmed because I think that working through anxiety on your own and proving to yourself that you can do it is so much more powerful.

I've done a food journal and am treating myself with nutrition as opposed to prescribed meds for both the anxiety and crohn's. It's definitely difficult and very frustrating. But, if you put in the time and effort to do your own research and trial and error, I'm confident you can feel some genuine improvements. Every little step counts and it's all worth it.

As for coping skills, a lot of CBT and mindfulness. Notice your negative thoughts, challenge them by replacing them with neutral statements (example: negative thought- I'm such a loser for having all these problems.; thought challenge- I have many stressors and I'm doing my best to work through all of them.), avoid judging yourself, give yourself a pep talk every day or every hour if you need to. Accept yourself for who you are and find gratitude wherever you can. Attitude is everything and you get to choose your attitude every day.
A great post !! Thanks !!
 
Stress, Depression and anxiety can be huge obstacles for many of us. It can be challenging for everyone to find a way out can seem nearly impossible. If you want to get rid of these problems then you should do exercises or yoga that will surely give you peace of mind and body. Even you can play games or go for outing that diverts your mind for sometime.
 

cmack

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I find keeping the mind busy really helps. I often listen to music or read. Exercise is also good as long as it doesn't hurt... It's all cheap, yet effective therapy for me! ;)
 

emmaaaargh

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How are your studies going ?
Hope your anti-depressant is working out for you.
You sound like you have as good head on your shoulders.
Take care of yourself.
Lynda 🌻
Thank you, Lynda! My studies are going well - I just finished my second year of university, and my results are released in two weeks. I feel like my antidepressant is working most of the time, but I still struggle often with anxiety and obsessive thoughts/behaviours. That said, I'm on the lowest possible dose of my antidepressant so there's lots of room for adjustment if I need it! I keep thinking about returning to my GP about it, but compared to how I was previously, I don't think there's much cause for concern. Hope you're doing well, and that everyone else in this thread is too! :)
 
Jay, how are you ?
Just checking up on everyone today. 🙂
Lynda 🐝
Thank you Lynda!

To be honest .. I am in the dumps. Because of my CD, I am no longer able to drive trucks, and since that was my job, and my FMLA was expended, my company terminated my employment. I knew that was coming because they were being bought out by a major competitor, but they didn't even have the courtesy of calling me .. they just sent me an email and said to come clean out my truck.

And since I no longer have a job, I am loosing my insurance. For the first time in my life I am on government assistance and that alone is depressing! Just getting up in the morning is becoming a chore. Then again.. so is just going to bed. My lumbar and cervical has issues so I can't lay down (or sit or stand for that matter) for long, but when I do go down .. I don't want to get up. I do so only because the pain get to be too much!

Sometimes I wonder if the struggle is worth it. Then I think about Mom and remember that I have always said that no parent should ever have to bury their child and so I move past it. But it is not easy sometimes.

I got so pissed at my neurologist Friday that I just walked out on her. I had the second appointment of the day and still I waited over an hour to see her. I had my therapist to go to so I just walked out. I was fuming!

That is another thing I am noticing. My tolerance for bull poop is out the window and virtually non-existent!

Anyway, sorry for 'dumping' on ya. Thanks for 'listening.'

Jay
 

cmack

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Hey Jay,

I'm sorry you have all this trouble, I lost my job too and it isn't easy. You can talk to me any time, pm's are fine too. I care about people like you because I'm one of you. Stay strong you will prevail.
 

Lynda Lynda

Senior Member
Jay 😟😢

Believe it or not, I have experienced everything that you talked about in your post. Everything. The last 13 years have been the hardest years for me. Now I live on Social Security Benefits and Medicare Health Insurance. I have Crohn's Disease, but also Major Depressive Disorder and Anxiety. ( And I have been sleeping in a recliner for 11 years because of my back, hip and shoulder problems.)
I am only 58 years old.

Please don't give up. Keep that spunky, feisty attitude, that means you're still fighting and you are not giving up ! Getting pissed off, for me, means that I am going to take action and get things done ! [Sort of a "good" pissed off.]

I will go to the prayer thread and pray for you. You deserve a happy and healthy life.

Sending you my support and hugs.
Keep us updated or PM us if you need to.

Lynda
 
Well, that just suck big green d&$(@$^ [email protected]*s! I just got the dang paperwork for COBRA insurance .. yea .. um .. that's not going to friggin happen! $955 per MONTH! shit .. if I could afford that .. I wouldn't be 2 years behind in my property taxes! Come to think of it .. that IS a years property taxes!

So ... now I am sitting here trying to figure out where the hell i put my 2017 IRS-1040 so I can file the paperwork for the Johnson & Johnson Patient Assistance Foundation. I spent 2 hours on hold trying to connect to them and find out what alternative paperwork I could use .. but I never got through.

My therapist said he would still see me but only 2x/month .. so I guess I better give him a call and see about an appointment since I haven't seen him in 3 weeks!

At least my Unemployment was tentatively approved, pending review, and that will help.

What is really killing me emotionally is that I am 50 years old and have NEVER had to rely on government assistance and I now have food stamps! That alone is depressing as hell to me.

Maybe I'll get lucky and SSDI will approve the first time and I won't have to worry about anything for a bit.

Anyway .. I have ranted on enough .. I said i'd keep you updated .. so there is my update. More than my personal journal is getting! LOL

Shalom U'varecha! (Peace and Blessings)

Jason
 

Lynda Lynda

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Jason, come here anytime !

I will pray that you get approved for your SSDI and Medicare Insurance SOON.

When I say that I understand what you are going through, I really mean it.
It all happened to me when I was 47 years old.
I worked my my ass off at Chase Bank for 24 years.
Then it was bye-bye for me during the recession.
Yep, my career was gone and my dignity and purpose were gone too. [ 2009 ]

My COBRA was $350 a month.

I also sat for hours in the DES lobby to apply for food assistance. I was one of the lucky ones who actually got a chair to sit in. I was afraid to go to the bathroom because I thought they might call my name while I was in the bathroom !

I was also embarrassed to be applying for Unemployment Benefits. I had always been totally independent. At 19 years old I had a job, my own apartment and my own car.
I collected Unemployment for 18 months and food assistance for 6 months. I hate the DES. [ 2010 ]

There was a real dark time for me, it was called 2012.
I was not taking any psychiatric drugs and was severely depressed and isolated. I was in some kind of alternate universe. I was broke and had no health insurance.

I started collecting SSD and Medicare Health Insurance in 2013. Now I was labeled "disabled," both mentally and physically.

But it actually worked to my advantage to be poor because after I was discharged from the psychiatric floor at the hospital in 2013 I qualified for a free aftercare program and then a clinic and a psychiatrist. Damn, being poor finally got me the help I needed. Oh, and my mom was dying in Hospice at that time.

I know that you have the smarts and the determination to get things done ! And you will succeed !
I mean it, keep that "pissed off and I'm gonna get shit done attitude." Make those calls. Stand in lines. Be a strong advocate for yourself.

I am sorry that I talked too much about myself, but I just wanted you to know that I "get it." I never thought it would happen to me. Never.

Please keep us updated. We care and understand.
❤
 
Woo Hoo! :ywow: Now I am friggin allergic to Codine! Please, just friggin shot me! Doc is chicken shit to give me a stronger pain med and I don't have any insurance to seek a new doc .. so I get to live with the friggin pain again! No wonder I just want to check out sometimes. :ybatty:

I have an appointment with Unemployment office since it is getting harder and harder for me to get out of the house, :poo: I am going to loose that too.

Shits gettin real out here again! I never thought I'd be struggling to find a reason to get out of bed in the morning. Other than to :poo:, I have had no desire to get going this past 2 weeks. I think I figured out what that light is coming at me in the tunnel ... It's the friggin train and not the end of the tunnel!

Finally broke down and called my therapist and told him we need to meet or the next time he sees me will either be at my funeral or in a padded room! :yrolleyes: He said to come see him and not worry about the fee. I guess that is one good thing. I see him tomorrow, let see what we can come up with.

On a good note, I went ahead and got recommissioned as a notary public here in Texas. Set up for mobile notary services and just about all my supplies are in. Going to get training and certified as a Certified Signing Agent, and that should provide just enough income that I won't starve. And if not .. well .. At least I have something I can do when I CAN get out!

Ciao for now !! :eek:utahere:
 

cmack

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Staff member
Hang in there. It can only be bad for so long until it all takes a turn for the better. You are doing the right things, I think it's great that you are seeing your therapist and keeping your bases covered with the unemployment office. I hope things get better soon, you can do this.
 
Wow, been a month since my last post. Guess what ... not much has changed! :ybatty:

Get up, go :poo:,
take my meds, go :poo:,
feed the doggie, rabbit and kitty's , go :poo:,
feed myself, go :poo:.

The only thing that has really changed is that my husband is less supportive now then when this all started .. LESS then a year ago!! :ywow:

Today was interesting .. Did the normal frequent trips to :poo:, and decided to set a TV tray in there so I can drag my laptop. That was a mistake! My damn legs went to sleep and I fell flat on my face! :redface:

OH! that is something else that changed this month .. I have a new diagnosis ... Bi-Polar !! go figure! 40 years of severe mood swings and they are now calling it bi-polar! :confused2: I would have thought the neuro-psychiatrist and his 4 hours test would have discovered that. All this time, I just thought it was :depressed:

Sometimes I just want to tell the world to :kissgrits:

That's all for now ... I'm :eek:utahere:
 
I've been struggling with depression for many years, but the last 6 months has been the hardest since the crohn's has developed. I struggle to cope with constantly feeling ill, being exhausted every single day no matter how much sleep I get and being so busy at work that I struggle to concentrate and often used to find myself almost falling asleep at my desk.

It all became too much one day and I just started crying in work and didn't stop for 3 days. I'm extremely lucky in that my boss was incredibly supportive, and my doctor really helped me and changed my antidepressants. the last few weeks have been hard but I finally feel like things are becoming just that bit more brighter. Crohn's is a terrible thing and I honestly feel for all of us having to cope with it. It's a terrible strain on your body, but the strain on your mind trying to keep yourself is check is immense.
 

cmack

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Hi Evie,

I'm sorry that you are having a rough time. I'm here to talk if you like, I promise not to judge you. PM's are fine. I understand what you are saying and I can relate. I hope the change of antidepressants will help you rise above this rough patch. Remember, things can only be bad for so long before it turns for the better. That has been my experience anyway.


Finest Regards,

Chris
 

cmack

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Wow, been a month since my last post. Guess what ... not much has changed! :ybatty:

Get up, go :poo:,
take my meds, go :poo:,
feed the doggie, rabbit and kitty's , go :poo:,
feed myself, go :poo:.

The only thing that has really changed is that my husband is less supportive now then when this all started .. LESS then a year ago!! :ywow:

Today was interesting .. Did the normal frequent trips to :poo:, and decided to set a TV tray in there so I can drag my laptop. That was a mistake! My damn legs went to sleep and I fell flat on my face! :redface:

OH! that is something else that changed this month .. I have a new diagnosis ... Bi-Polar !! go figure! 40 years of severe mood swings and they are now calling it bi-polar! :confused2: I would have thought the neuro-psychiatrist and his 4 hours test would have discovered that. All this time, I just thought it was :depressed:

Sometimes I just want to tell the world to :kissgrits:

That's all for now ... I'm :eek:utahere:

That sounds less than ideal:(. I'm glad you got a diagnosis but I'm sorry it had to be that way. At least now you might get on the right track with different meds. I wish you the best, talk to me any time PM's are fine with me and are confidential. You can reach me here as well.


Best Wishes,

Chris
 
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