Ever since I have developed Crohn's stress has been a major factor in how I feel physically. And right now the stress is really piling up. I moved away from home for the first time. I moved to Montreal to go to University and I don't know anyone at all in this city. I've been out of school for so long that uni is a bit overwhelming right now. Write an essay? I haven't written more than an e-mail in the last several years.
But the part that is really upsetting me is that my move brought the end to a two and a half year relationship with my girlfriend. Which wasn't exactly unexpected, but I was totally unprepared for it. The fact that it's over and there's nothing I can do about it is eating me up. I'm usually a pretty level-headed guy, but I'm far from level-headed right now. I've been pretty stupid and I haven't taken my medication since I moved here and I haven't been eating much either, which probably is part of the reason I feel so crappy right now. I've been trying to do things to cheer myself up, but it hasn't really been working. I went to a tattoo convention yesterday which usually would interest me, but I just wandered around a bit and came home. I'm glad tomorrow in Monday, at least school keeps me a little distracted.
But the part that is really upsetting me is that my move brought the end to a two and a half year relationship with my girlfriend. Which wasn't exactly unexpected, but I was totally unprepared for it. The fact that it's over and there's nothing I can do about it is eating me up. I'm usually a pretty level-headed guy, but I'm far from level-headed right now. I've been pretty stupid and I haven't taken my medication since I moved here and I haven't been eating much either, which probably is part of the reason I feel so crappy right now. I've been trying to do things to cheer myself up, but it hasn't really been working. I went to a tattoo convention yesterday which usually would interest me, but I just wandered around a bit and came home. I'm glad tomorrow in Monday, at least school keeps me a little distracted.