I seem to be stuck in a never ending argument with my guy.
I am in a job in a very toxic environment - psyhcologically toxic that is. It is in a field I love and used to be a job I loved. I am now bored silly with it. As well, I am being bullied, mobbed and conditions of favoritism exist(I am not the favorite) If I suggest an idea for improvement, immediately 2-3 other people say what a horrible idea it and how it would never work. Many charges have been brought against me on the grounds of my attitude and behaviour for the last 3 years(coincidentally about the same time my health has gone to shits)
So my BF wants me to just quit. I am however, the type that needs another job to go to before I mke such a move. I have been looking for 5 years but the prospects in my field in this town are limited. I also have the need for benefits due to all my meds and the fact that I am going on remicade soon.
He feels that if I quit such a place then my Crohn's will settle down, I won't need Remicade(which he is against me taking as he is not a medication kind of guy) I will be able to come off my entocort, lose the wieght I have gained from it and generally all will be right in the world.
He insists he makes enough for me to quit - he doesn't . I quit work once when I was married and that backfired in my face and I am not going to put myself at the mercy of a man again ( apologies to all you upstanding guys who wouldn't pull the financial rug out from your wife)
My Bf and I are not married or even engaged, when I suggested he take his wife(they're separated) off his benefits he wouldn't so if I don't have a job I don't have benefits. There are no real indications of long term commitment on his part - other than he is here until I tell him to leave. I also have concerns about trying to get on someone else's benefits now that I have a pre-exisitng condition.
I am planning on going back to school if the remicade works(if not I'll end up having surgery so school will be on hold) He thinks I should just quit and go back to school full time(again the no benefits thing though) Also the house and everything is mine and my responsibility so just quitting and not having enough money to keep my house is not an option.
So we have a circle - I want to leave, but until I can do so with a plan I can't even though I know it would be better for my health. He wants me to quit so my health will get better and could care less where the chips fall.
Sorry this is rambling and long I am just so fed up. No one wants me to go on Remicade and everyone keeps pushing their "chosen" solution for my Crohn's(quit your job,alternative, exercise, "just get on with it", drink colloidal silver etc)
Thanks for listening and any suggestions would be helpful.
I am in a job in a very toxic environment - psyhcologically toxic that is. It is in a field I love and used to be a job I loved. I am now bored silly with it. As well, I am being bullied, mobbed and conditions of favoritism exist(I am not the favorite) If I suggest an idea for improvement, immediately 2-3 other people say what a horrible idea it and how it would never work. Many charges have been brought against me on the grounds of my attitude and behaviour for the last 3 years(coincidentally about the same time my health has gone to shits)
So my BF wants me to just quit. I am however, the type that needs another job to go to before I mke such a move. I have been looking for 5 years but the prospects in my field in this town are limited. I also have the need for benefits due to all my meds and the fact that I am going on remicade soon.
He feels that if I quit such a place then my Crohn's will settle down, I won't need Remicade(which he is against me taking as he is not a medication kind of guy) I will be able to come off my entocort, lose the wieght I have gained from it and generally all will be right in the world.
He insists he makes enough for me to quit - he doesn't . I quit work once when I was married and that backfired in my face and I am not going to put myself at the mercy of a man again ( apologies to all you upstanding guys who wouldn't pull the financial rug out from your wife)
My Bf and I are not married or even engaged, when I suggested he take his wife(they're separated) off his benefits he wouldn't so if I don't have a job I don't have benefits. There are no real indications of long term commitment on his part - other than he is here until I tell him to leave. I also have concerns about trying to get on someone else's benefits now that I have a pre-exisitng condition.
I am planning on going back to school if the remicade works(if not I'll end up having surgery so school will be on hold) He thinks I should just quit and go back to school full time(again the no benefits thing though) Also the house and everything is mine and my responsibility so just quitting and not having enough money to keep my house is not an option.
So we have a circle - I want to leave, but until I can do so with a plan I can't even though I know it would be better for my health. He wants me to quit so my health will get better and could care less where the chips fall.
Sorry this is rambling and long I am just so fed up. No one wants me to go on Remicade and everyone keeps pushing their "chosen" solution for my Crohn's(quit your job,alternative, exercise, "just get on with it", drink colloidal silver etc)
Thanks for listening and any suggestions would be helpful.