It's time for me to start living my life!
I've let this disease rule my life. The year I was diagnosed the school failed me because I had too many absent days (even though I did enough work to pass some of my courses). They said the rules were different if I was homeschooled, so next the next year I didn't go to school, I stayed home to do it instead. I had little motivation, and with nobody standing over my shoulder, my work didn't get done. I tried going back to school a few times after that, but always quit in the end. I never finished high school.
I just let every thing wash over me. I went through a period of apathy in my late teens. I stopped taking my meds, not because I didn't want to take them, but because I just didn't care enough to do it.
I was waiting to start my life when I got well enough to do it. I've realized that I'll have to adjust my vision of what "well enough" is. I had surgery earlier this year, and I did feel ok for a while, but now things are getting worse again. I have D all the time, and a couple of weeks ago I had what felt like a flare up. I don't know if it's back already or not, but it sure feels like it. I'm 23, it's well past time for me to move out and do something!
I passed the GED test in September(Timed tests suck when you spend a good bit of the time in the bathroom). I want to go to University now, but I'm aprehensive about it. I'm used to being alone, I'm really anxious in a classroom setting. I think it would be best if I start as part time student. In the past I've taken an all or nothing approach to things that hasn't worked very well. I don't really know how to swing it financially either, I don't think I'm well enough to work and go to school at the same time. I think I've been a bit too slow to get going too, it's probably too late to get in on the winter semester at University, so I might need to wait 'till summer. I can't spend the better part of the year doing nothing again, I'm letting life slip away!
I've let this disease rule my life. The year I was diagnosed the school failed me because I had too many absent days (even though I did enough work to pass some of my courses). They said the rules were different if I was homeschooled, so next the next year I didn't go to school, I stayed home to do it instead. I had little motivation, and with nobody standing over my shoulder, my work didn't get done. I tried going back to school a few times after that, but always quit in the end. I never finished high school.
I just let every thing wash over me. I went through a period of apathy in my late teens. I stopped taking my meds, not because I didn't want to take them, but because I just didn't care enough to do it.
I was waiting to start my life when I got well enough to do it. I've realized that I'll have to adjust my vision of what "well enough" is. I had surgery earlier this year, and I did feel ok for a while, but now things are getting worse again. I have D all the time, and a couple of weeks ago I had what felt like a flare up. I don't know if it's back already or not, but it sure feels like it. I'm 23, it's well past time for me to move out and do something!
I passed the GED test in September(Timed tests suck when you spend a good bit of the time in the bathroom). I want to go to University now, but I'm aprehensive about it. I'm used to being alone, I'm really anxious in a classroom setting. I think it would be best if I start as part time student. In the past I've taken an all or nothing approach to things that hasn't worked very well. I don't really know how to swing it financially either, I don't think I'm well enough to work and go to school at the same time. I think I've been a bit too slow to get going too, it's probably too late to get in on the winter semester at University, so I might need to wait 'till summer. I can't spend the better part of the year doing nothing again, I'm letting life slip away!
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