Hey everyone. I've been on treatment for Crohn's disease for about a year now. I had crohns disease for about 2-3 years before I got diagnosed. I felt HORRIBLE all the time. I had to take immodium every single day just so i wasn't living in the bathroom. Once I got diagnosed I got on remicade and I started doing much better for about a month then I started getting sick again. It wasn't as bad as without treatment, but I still just didn't feel good. I started taking more medicine to help my digestion omegazyme digestive health, culturelle, and digestive advantage lactose defense (I'm lactose intolerant). These things seemed to help my stomach slightly, but there was no huge difference. Today I just started taking carafate and ultimate flora probiotic instead of culturelle. I thought I would feel better from these, but instead i've just been getting diarrhea still. I'm so tired of not feeling well. I feel like Crohn's disease has taken over my life. I'm 18 and I feel like I can't do anything. I feel like this is the time where I should be having the best time of my life, but i'm not. Today I was going to go out to hang out with someone I recently met. Just as I was about to leave I started feeling sick, I went to the bathroom and had diarrhea. So now i'm just sitting in my room for the day. I just started trying to hang out with people again. I isolated myself when i got sick because it was embarrassing and i just couldn't go anywhere without having diarrhea. I used to go out all the time and do stuff i enjoyed. I can't do anything anymore. All my favorite foods I can't eat, in fact, i can hardly eat anything anymore. I love food which makes it even harder because everything seems to upset my stomach. I have been so responsible since I was diagnosed I've taken my meds everyday and i changed my diet completely. I used to go out and party and do crazy stuff, I don't now because I want to get better. I want to go out though and have fun, get a job, not have to worry when I go to college. I want my life back, I want my health back. I just want to be better. I am so sad. I feel like I can't do anything anymore I want to be able to enjoy my life. I don't want to be spending everyday stuck inside worrying. I want to feel better so badly. I just want this disease to go away, I'm so scared that I'm not going to get better and that I won't be able to do everything that I want to do in my life. I'm just tired of living like this. I feel alone and like no one understands how truly hard it is to deal with this. I'm just sick of this stupid disease.