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Is there really anything that strikes terror straight through your heart more than the prospect of running out of toilet paper?...I was reading one of Jeff's posts and he mentioned this....I must confess, I do have a stockpile of TP on hand....I also religiously add RID-X to my septic system because I am certain some day soon, it is going to explode....My husband assures me that septic systems don't explode, but I'm not buying it. Mostly because, when it happens, I will be the one to blame....So, my resolution is to stop entertaining these irrational fears. Does anyone else do this? Especially with Crohn's related issues.
 
I'm sure everyone is this way - but if I *know* I'm in a full flare - I just get all these sometimes irrational fears of needing surgery again - just worrying that I won't be able to get the flare back under control. Same thing with the situation that I'm in now where I may have to switch meds. I hate switching meds because I'm always afraid the new one won't work - THEN what's gonna happen? I know everyone probably feels this way (right?) - but you asked, so there it is :O)
 
I have but one fear, loosing my son for some God-forsaken reason.
Otherwise I fear nothing. Not being macho or brave (possibly stupid, yes) but I have this thing where if I'm afraid of something I HAVE to face it.
Like I was afraid of heights so I jumped out of a plane and bungee jumped and was a tree climber for a tree service.
 
Like you mentioned, I'm afraid of running out of TP. I'm also afraid of getting an ostomy, I feel like I will be getting one sooner rather than later which is why I'm worried about my colonoscopy/dilation tomorrow. I'm also mildy scared of the dark.
 
Full blown bowel obstruction, there is NO greater pain... at least for me. I know if it ever happens, surgery will be number 3!
 
D Bergy said:
I am afraid that I may never get to blow up a Septic System.

Dan
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Alright Dan, let's send that one into Myth Busters. Maybe you can be a walk on guest.?
 
I'm afraid of the extreme crazy pain to come back. The pain that I was in while in the hospital hurt more than words can describe. I know some you know exactly what I mean. Thankfully some of you don't.

It has become my biggest fear.
 
I fear:

Never getting published and succeeding at the one thing I know I do very well. Better than quite a few already published and successful authors...

Never being able to provide for our daughter's education because of failing the above.

Getting terminally ill and both of the above happening as a result.

The people who believe the end of the Mayan calendar are right and the top two happen.

A zombie apocalypse...I need more guns.

Losing my wife or daughter or both.

My daughter getting Crohn's and a cure still nowhere in sight.
 
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Dan, I secretly worry about the Mayan calendar, too, although part of me hopes that they were in the middle of writing it, got a cramp in their hand and said the hell with it and didn't want to finish. That would've been me anyway, LOL.

I know I've talked about it before, but I had an overwhelming fear of heart disease...and I'm not even 30 years old! A commerical about "heart disease is the #1 killer of women" would come on and put me in a full blown panic attack. This went on for years before I seeked help and now I can type the above paragraph and not break into a frenzy, LOL.
 
vshirey317 said:
Dan, I secretly worry about the Mayan calendar, too, although part of me hopes that they were in the middle of writing it, got a cramp in their hand and said the hell with it and didn't want to finish. That would've been me anyway, LOL.
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Yeah, I keep saying that they were probably going, "c'mon, there's no way even our mighty empire's gonna be around that long. We'll just stop it here."
 
I have a fear of losing my son and wife. As bad as it may sound, I WANT to be the first to go. I atleast want to see my son grow through his childhood.

I have an extreme fear of death. I cannot even really think of it, but I'm curious what happens afterwards.

I cannot do heights! I tried conquering it a few times, but it didn't seem to work.

I don't have such a fear of accidents anymore (since I've had a few), I have to prepare myself before I venture out.
 
DanSJVDavis said:
Yeah, I keep saying that they were probably going, "c'mon, there's no way even our mighty empire's gonna be around that long. We'll just stop it here."
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If only they hadn't been right about everything else! Freakin' geniuses! Argh...::twaps forehead::

Maybe there's another calendar floating around out there somewhere undiscovered. Yeah, that's it...
 
Meh, If you look at any number of predictions intently enough they can be right eventually. Look at Nostradamus. He's got a whole book of them.

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Although, I was recently told by a Reiki master and seer that if I did follow the path of attunement that I'd make a good seer. Not sure how I feel about that one.
 
I don't worry about the end of the world or even dying. What I find myself worrying about every once in a while is having a Motorcycle, Car, or Snowmobile accident, and being Paralyzed.

That would be worse than death to me, as I would be dependent on someone else for the rest of my life. I am used to doing what I want, when I want, and being self sufficient and providing for my Family.

That is number two, in my book of fears. One is my children or wife dying on me.

Dan
 
Spending the rest of my life alone.

Dad dying.

Getting sick enough to need surgery.

Getting sick enough to not be able to function.

Being poor.


Those are a few. I'm not really scared about dying either. It's not the dead part that hurts its the potentially getting sick and being in pain for a long time first that is the problem. I mean, if I am dead, I won't know any different will I? And, who knows, perhaps we do end up somewhere better :)
 
I have an irrational fear of revolving doors. I'm afraid I'll get stuck going round and round and won't get out. It's true. I avoid them at all costs.

I also fear dying alone.
 
I actually fear life in general, it scares me more than dying or even the thought of dying...this is what having crohn's has done to me mentally.

:)
 
pb4 said:
I actually fear life in general, it scares me more than dying or even the thought of dying...this is what having crohn's has done to me mentally.

:)
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I hear you!

And I will add that right now I am afraid to eat as it's started causing me big problems in the evenings :(
 
I am afraid to go to bed since I saw a mouse in the kitchen.
Already a friendhas placed some poison pellets behind the frig and in strategic areas as well as plugging in some Victor unltrasound devices
Is there a way that is foolproof
This has only just started happening
I know I cannot manage a cat and am a bit afraid ofthem.
Since my dog died ,she was 19 years old, I cannot face another animal and the thought of dying.
Now I don't know what to do till morning comes'I am afraid to go into the kitchen again.Can anyone help me?
annsplash
 
I'm sorry Shaz, I think I'll be that way for a few days after my dilation as passing any form of stool is going to hurt. I hope you start feeling better soon.
 
annsplash said:
I am afraid to go to bed since I saw a mouse in the kitchen.
Already a friendhas placed some poison pellets behind the frig and in strategic areas as well as plugging in some Victor unltrasound devices
Is there a way that is foolproof
This has only just started happening
I know I cannot manage a cat and am a bit afraid ofthem.
Since my dog died ,she was 19 years old, I cannot face another animal and the thought of dying.
Now I don't know what to do till morning comes'I am afraid to go into the kitchen again.Can anyone help me

Hmmm, I dunno Ann, I'm not much bothered by mice, though I don't ever get them here - I have a big cat!

Perhaps put something like a towel along under the bottom edge of your bedroom door if you are worried about it sneaking in?

I am sure it will be happier staying in the kitchen!

It's not mice that bother me and scare me it's maggots!!!

Worst fear - being buried alive in them - I expect it shall never happen!
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annsplash said:
I am afraid to go to bed since I saw a mouse in the kitchen.
Already a friendhas placed some poison pellets behind the frig and in strategic areas as well as plugging in some Victor unltrasound devices
Is there a way that is foolproof
This has only just started happening
I know I cannot manage a cat and am a bit afraid ofthem.
Since my dog died ,she was 19 years old, I cannot face another animal and the thought of dying.
Now I don't know what to do till morning comes'I am afraid to go into the kitchen again.Can anyone help me?
annsplash
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Get a broom when you go in the kitchen.... Sweep it away or where big huge boots. Step on it if it gets near you.
 
If you put a towel under the door and press it in good the mouse can't get into your room so that should help you sleep better. Worry about the mouse when you wake up but until then get a good nights sleep.
 
Thank you Shaz for the speedy reply
I am keeping the tv on, its quite loud and maybe it will keep away from the computer room and the bedroom.
I have a one floor level with a finished basement.
There is an apartment building next door and they have a big bin where people put their garbage.I am afraid this might be an attraction for unwanted livestock.
I have never been bothered before and never leave out food.
Its always in the frig or cupboards.
The only thing on the kitchen floor at the edges is the poison bait my friend laid.
I was hoping everything would be ok, but since it has only just happened there is not yet time for the evasive actions to take full effect.
I even thought of taking a taxi to the nearest hotel for the night but there is lots of snow and ice around, so I think I will tough it out.
Have not been sleeping well anyway with the pains I ahve been getting.
Its in the crohn's area and also gastric. I do hope the crohn's is not back but I have a suspicion it might be.Absolutely no appetite either.
The mouse does not help any!! Never had to cope with anything like that.
Thanks for the support.
annsplash
 
Thanks Mike for the advice.
I could not bring myself to even go in the kitchen let alone step on it.
Hopefully it has taken the bait and will disappear
My friends will be round in the morning and will help me.
He is an expert at these things his wife tells me since he was a school janitor.
Its just a long time till morning.
annsplash
 
Thank you Jeff for the support
I would like to know where the mouse enters and exits.
The strategic points have been covered by my friend with the poison bait.
Hopefully the mouse will disappear and take any family with it.
I won't be able to sleep until the problem is resolved though.
Presently I am just very shaky and nervous.
Bad enough with the pains without having to cope with interlopers!
annsplash
 
Good luck tomorrow Jeff
Hope everything goes smoothly for you
annsplash
 
Thank you and good luck to you as well. I hope you feel better and I hope you get that mouse so you can sleep. I probably won't be sleeping much either tonight.
 
I am afraid that I will never be able to get pregnant. That is my main fear.

I also have this thing about my cat dying. She is now 14 years old and I know it's inevitable. She has been my one constant over the past 14 years...I've moved her around to 8 different apartments and houses in two different states and she is always there waiting for me when I come home...no one has been more loyal. Although she still acts like a spring chicken, every time I come home I get this little fear that she will not be there to greet me. Bums me out.
 
Hello Jeff,
Hope things went well for you today and that you will soon be feeling better.
The mouse is no more,took the bait and died.
My good friend came early today and removed the body.
He said he thinks it is just a stray one looking for shelter and a meal.It found one and it was lethal.
I could not go into the kitchen though until my friend arrived to do the clean up.
Hope that is the last of it all.
I am so grateful for this forum, such a big help in the middle of the night.
I have not slept so now will relax but still I feel a bit tense.
Maybe I will take a walk in the snow and slip slide away--------
annsplash
 
Hello Shadycat
I know how you feel and it is a reason that I am afraid to have another dog, although I would dearly love the company and companionship.
It also gives a home to a pet from the animal shelter.
I have had two dogs across the years and each has been an unwanted pet from the local animal shelter.We just loved them to bits.
Now that my health is on the decline it would not be fair to adopt at this time.
Cats live a very long time usually and I had a friend whose cat lived 22 years.They are so much more independant than dogs.
Based on this premise you will have your cat for many years yet.
Just enjoy every day with your cat and think life, not the opposite.
Live each day to the fullest.
It is so easy with this awful crohn's to become fearful and depressed and it is something to fight against every single day.
annsplash
 
haha...I'm afraid of the bad gas I get during a flare! lol. everyone should fear that.
 
ok on a serious note...I am a hypochondriac, afraid of dying, not seeing my son grow, getting a fatal illness. gives me shivers just thinking about it
 
My biggest fear is losing Janis to some horrible illness. Or just plain losing her. That and my kids or grandkids dying before us.
 
Oh, my other fear is Janis coming in while I'm taking a shower just to go poop. Oh the feeling of being trapped. I could drown in the shower after passing out!!!!
 
The other day me and a friend were talking about a guy we know and he's really good looking and has a really good job. And I said 'yeah he's been blessed in life' and my friend said 'yeah but have you seen him dance? He can't dance'... and I thought to myself. I'd rather be generally mediocre with flashes of handsomeness and have rhythm than be amazingley good 'at life' but a complete square on the dancefloor.

So I guess 'losing my rhythm' is my biggest fear!
 
Your right James, if you can't bust a move it doesn't do you any good to be goodlooking. But than again if you can really cut the rug and your really good looking, you got the world by the tail.
 
Now, if you are male, good looking, and can dance, you probably aren't very interested in women.....That's my theory. Sorry Pirate.
 
imisspopcorn said:
Now, if you are male, good looking, and can dance, you probably aren't very interested in women.....That's my theory. Sorry Pirate.
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I concur, my love.
 
Well I use to be good looking and I can dance, but I'm only interested in one woman. When we met it was at a homecoming game and I drove her to the school from the football field. When we got there the place was full and only 1 chair, so I did the gentlemanly thing and let her sit on my knee. We weren't even on a date, but I never danced with anyone but her that night and we have been together ever since. But I'm still a hunk she says.
 
I'm so scared of losing Josh. Terrified. More than anything else in my life.

I'm scared of our house setting on fire, especially when our furbabies are inside!!!

I'm afraid of fire in and of itself.
 
imisspopcorn said:
:puke_r: Blah...Mushy! I'm not buying it!
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Ours truely is a true love story.:)
She had seen me around the year before and thought I was a whoopie.(Not in a good way. I was a dirty, long haired druggie:ybatty: ). When I met her that night of the game I was stoned. She was there just to watch her cousin win the Queens court. My cousin and Janis' friend went their own seperate ways and left us standing there. I bought us a bag of popcorn and we walked around and just talked. By the end of the game we both really were attracted to each other. The rest is history.

Now I'm a WHOOOOPIE! At least that's what she says. I say she's the hottest woman around and I can't figure how I got so lucky.

by the way, after that night her I quit using drugs and drinking cause she wasn't into that stuff. Who got the best deal out of that?
 
I'm terrified of sharp objects. I can manage to use knives, but cannot watch others use them, and often before i use it i have flashes of cutting myself. I love cooking shows, but close my eyes when they cut. All through last season of Hells Kitchen i refused to watch them do prep, because i had heard someone cut themselves on a mandolin and couldn't bear to watch it.

It's funny, because i'm an LPN, and can handle blood, i could dress any wound (love wound care, actually), but can't handle watching it happen i guess....I even dream about people cutting themselves. LOL
 
tamesis said:
I'm terrified of sharp objects. I can manage to use knives, but cannot watch others use them, and often before i use it i have flashes of cutting myself. I love cooking shows, but close my eyes when they cut. All through last season of Hells Kitchen i refused to watch them do prep, because i had heard someone cut themselves on a mandolin and couldn't bear to watch it.

It's funny, because i'm an LPN, and can handle blood, i could dress any wound (love wound care, actually), but can't handle watching it happen i guess....I even dream about people cutting themselves. LOL
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This reminds me a bit of garbage disposals. I know I can't be the only one picturing a hand going in that thing when it's turned on! lol
 
Those freak me out too....And my mom DOES stick her hand into it! She's like "the blades are way down there, i just push the stuff in" My thoughts, well, what if you end up pushing a little harder than you meant to and bam, bye bye fingers!
 
Yes..I hate having to fish stuff out of it. Somehow a penny was in ours clinking around. I kept grinding, hoping it would wash down. No luck . I shudder when I think about it.
 
im not afraid of dying really, more afraid of my parents and brother dying and also my kitties. my oldest cat, 16, has been sick the past few days and ive been a wreck, but he seems to be a little better now. ive never lost a pet before, last time a pet passed away i was only 4 and didnt have the same bond with them.

i have a fear of time? yeah....i think i do. its weird.
 
Being buried alive is the one that truly freezes my bowels (and that's not easily done for a crohnie). So I no longer holiday in earthquake zones.

Curiously, I'm remarkably sanguine concerning the forthcoming zombie apocalypse (great suggestion, Dan). I'm so gormless I'd be the first guy to get his brains eaten... then the rest of you would have to watch out for me... but I suppose I wouldn't make a very good zombie either.
 

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