I wrote about this before but will again. Sorry was at Drs ask if I can't afford pills anymore how long will have to live? I was Joking around. No smile all business she says at least 2 to 3 months and won't be pretty. Doctor says don't worry will get them for you. Mind you the book on me is like war and peace known by first name almost everywhere I go at Yale. Been in there many time and many surgeries and other great stuff. My point being is on 6mp want to stop nothing helps and want to stop being sick. Not feeling sorry for myself just want calm. Before you ask been to other Doctors and one had the balls to say what do you me to do! YES!