I have recently decided to go ahead and have surgery. I had a total colectomy in April 2010 (no bags or pouches at all), and now on January 25, 2011 I will have an ileostomy. I can't wait!!!!! I have been crippled- yes- crippled with crohn's disease since 2001 and I've had enough. I've been on TONS of meds and nothing ever works, or only for a short period of time. I have been putting any kind of surgery to the side for so long I lost sight of the real issue-getting my life back! I have a 4 year old son that I can honestly say I have NEVER been able to fully enjoy. I will never get that time back, and the thought of losing one more minute sickens me more. I have never Christmas shopped for him, played in the snow, played with him on the floor, swim in our pool, take him to parks, bike rides, trick-or-treating etc. I have done some of that some of the time, but never all or any of it consistently. I am laying in bed now, sick with fistulas, joint pain, and a general flare. His behavior has changed considerably any time I get to this point , which is 98% of the time. I regret not having surgery sooner, and I know I can get no lower than this...just waiting for surgery, yet trying to make the most of the holidays for him before surgery. He (and I) deserve some normalcy. I am not, nor have I been, the person I was and want to be, my son is missing so much of me and vice versa. This hell needs to end for us, and it will soon, the only way from here is up. To anyone contemplating surgery-just do it! It's never going to sound appealing to have a bag over the choice of not having one, but don't waste precious time taking too long to decide. Most likely you'll need surgery at some point in life anyway and it can at least be on your terms, and not an emergency situation where things could turn out much worse. If anyone has any advice for me getting through a Michigan, February, recovery (if you live in Michigan you'll understand) or general tips, I would appreciate it. I am overweight so to me that's an extra challenge/concern with a bag and it's maintenance. Don't ask how I got so lucky to have chronic diarrhea, pain, bleeding, nausea, etc., but still manage to be a fatty!? Oh well, one problem at a time. Hopefully I'll get things back in order with the return of a better quality of life!:thumleft:
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