I know exactly where you're coming from. I don't smoke or drink alcohol but I do eat junk food. My mum and boyfriend are health nuts and they're constantly riding my back about it, claiming that the only reason I'm sick is because I eat sugary and fatty foods and if I didn't I would be miraculously cured.
It must be so hard for you to not know what is happening with your body but I'm sure you'll get a diagnosis soon and then you'll know what you're dealing with and you'll be able to manage it.
Feeling like running away from it all is okay, everything feels so much more overwhelming when you're ill and run down. And I know you know this but how you feel is nobodies fault, especially not your own.
Best of luck getting some answers and sorting things out with your family.
