Hi Jenn, I can see that you are hurting greatly and feel very alone. I often feel as though I am being held captive to a disease that has control over me no matter how hard I try. Whats worse is that it can come on so quickly and get so bad so fast. BUT It can also get better so fast. I was just in the ER twice, second time they kept me there. Just know you are in good care, hey no cleaning or cooking or chores. Have people visit you and bring your treats that you can eat. Watch tv or read. I journal that helps. I wish I could tell u one thing that would give you hope or take away the lonliness and fear. I have kids and a husband and lately have been in bed for majority of the day but I have learned to do what I can and be satisfied for we haven't control other then to get better. I used to beat myself, feel like a horrible mom and wife and get really down. This time I am not going to do that. You be good to yourself to honey. You will get through this. I like this saying. You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice. Remember they can't do anything with your permission. When I was in the hospital they wanted to do crazy stuff like insert a needle into abdomen, I asked why? They said its to help you not get blood clots lying in bed. I just got admitted? SO HECK NO. They didnt..turned out it was an error doc forgot to remove on the list. so advocate, stay strong, stay full of hope. I will pray for you my friend. You are not alone! :hug:
That's why we have this site because when times are tough, as they are right now, you need people who understand and will listen and help in whichever way we could. I have recieved so much support and education..wow the education. Crohnies are better to know about the problems and scares of the disease then any doctor I have met. I feel really bad now for you..NO FOOD? Not that hospital food is good but at least it's nice to eat somthing brought to you in bed..well I guess they do bring you a nice IV BAG. We can imagine that in that fluid bag is whatever yummy things you like best. When I was in the hospital they put me on PO which means no food or WATER for me. Ok I can go w out food but water?...that's just cruel. After 24 of no food and water I broke and asked for one of something just to wet my lips. I was in a bad mood by then. Nowhere the good attitude you have. 
