Thanks Marisa, you are a doll. I wish that i had the strength right now to filter out what i should and should not stress about. I still obviously have feeligs for my ex to be, but know through therapy and history that this is a road i should not go down again. it makes it very hard when she is the custodial parent at this point of my princess. I am a very affectionate person and used to spend most of my days kissing my daughter and holding her. This leaves a void in my heart that is magnified by thousands because I have already been through it with my boys. Even ten years later, I cry when I have to drop them off at their mothers. I consider myself a strong person but definitly not in this area. they are my flesh and blood and i feel a need to be with them, in a sense it is like being a criminal with no access. the pain i feel is disabling and horrid, i just wish my babies were with my all of the time.
