Beyond Frustrated

[JerseyIrish79]

I honestly don't know how much longer I can deal with being uncomfortable and irritable all the time. The doctors, of course, have a tendency to prolong the outpatient treatment process to little avail. I feel like I'm tossing my money out the window because I'm not getting results. In the meantime, every aspect of life seems to be affected. I have important things to handle but can't muster the physical or emotional strength to do them. It really doesn't help that whenever I try to discuss things with people it always seems to finish with some form of 'appreciate what you have.' Well, for one, that gives me the impression that I'm not worth anything better than what I have (which isn't much). Secondly, what is it that I should be appreciative of? I have a condition that has negatively affected every aspect of my life and, in the long run, is going to make me a burden to someone, whether it be family, friends or the state.

My whole life I've been hearing 'one of these days,' 'your time will come', etc. but after so long I don't believe it anymore. A friend has said that I'll be alright because I'm a 'nice guy' and 'hard worker' but that's BS because the world don't give two ***** on a rat's ass about either.

 

[David]

Hi Ryan,

First off, I understand. I feel your pain, I feel your frustration. And it &$^@ing blows. I'm so sorry you feel this way and are having to go through all of this

*hugs*

If all you wanted was an ear or to vent, stop reading here as I now have advice which you didn't ask for

I wish I would have seen your intro thread before now as I know how I would have responded. I would have asked if you have been tested for vitamin B12 and vitamin D deficiency. I ask because you have those symptoms, those deficiencies are VERY common in people with Crohn's, and if you are indeed deficient, supplementing them properly can make a HUGE difference.

So, if you're still reading, have you had your B12 and D checked? And if so, what were the levels? If not, get them tested as you are most certainly not throwing away money to get them tested.

 

[JerseyIrish79]

I get bloodwork done every two to three months and I definitely do have a vitamin D deficiency. The doctor said that my B12 is ok, though. I take supplements for the Vitamin D but go in waves with it because after taking them consistently for a little while they start to bother my digestive tract.

 

[David]

Hi Ryan,

1. In what way to they upset your digestive track? What brand and dose are you taking?

2. Do you know what your B12 level was last test? "Normal" may not be so normal if you were at the lower end of the reference range.