Cant sleep

[rattle]

cant sleep

Hi everyone,
Again here i am on the forum in the early hours.Cant sleep unless i eat then i feel unwell and fall asleep for a few hours.Crohns is playing up again.Doc has put me on ensure as all types of food are making me ill.Trying to find things to do now i am not working is proving hard as i have a bad case of tendonitis in my right arm plus the arthritis and joint problems.I can hardly straighten it or lift anything i have had it for 3 months.Plus the doc says i am now hypoglycemic i have had a few falls which i told him about.Ended up in AE after passing out and hitting my head on the corner of a brick wall.Very embarrising to wake up to a sea of faces with blood running down my face and a lump the size of an egg on my forehead.

One of my sisters has been quite ill and has had a biopsy done for breast cancer.Its pretty worring she should have the results soon.

Starting to get depressed over money problems and everything else thats going on.I am fighting it but i had clinical depression when mum died and went way off the rails.I dont think i ever recovered completely the wife says i am not quite the same person i once was.
I thought i would try and organise a golf day to benefit the NACC to give me something to focus on and help fellow sufferers but no one seems interested.

My friend of 35 years is getting married soon and i am his best man i just hope i dont get a bad flare up and ruing their big day.Trying not to get stressed over it but it is playing on my mind.Just wanted to put some thoughts down cant talk to the wife see has enough problems with her menopause and i wont burden her with mine.

 

[Jeff D.]

Man I wish you the best of luck. If you need to talk we are always here for you. Maybe try physical therapy if you can because it may help you with your physical problems. Best of luck

 

[ruthymg]

So sorry to hear you've so much to worry about right now. I am sure though, that your wife would want to know that you are stressing out, I know I would if it was my husband. Its difficult to try and relax when so much is going on. Have you tried any natural sleeping aids? the lack of sleep certainly won't be helping you right now, you need as much rest as possible, especially if your down at the moment too. No-one can deal with stress when they are exhausted. My aunt was diagnosed with breast cancer 12 months ago and she's had a tough time of it, so I can sort of relate to how you are feeling. Hope she's ok. In the meantime, try and focus on resting more, hope this helps a little


Ruth

 

[pb4]

Sounds like you have alot going on right now rattle (the name is perfect for your current situation isn't it)...

Try looking at it this way, the things you mentioned above, your sister (which I'm sorry to hear about and hope all goes well) and your friends wedding...stressing over these things that you have no real control over, will likely aggrivate your CD symptoms so although there's really nothing you can do about your sis's situation, making her feel that you are her rock right now, may actually turn around your feelings of worry into using that energy as strength for her (know what I mean) and your friends wedding...just eat mostly a light or liquid diet a day or 2 before the wedding, then make sure you take immodium with you so when you eat at the wedding you've got a safety net, and instead of letting negative thoughts of ruining your friends wedding, exchange those thoughts for positive ones, like how happy your friend is and how gorgeous the happy couple will look, in other words try and focus more on the happy occassion instead of you being a negative aspect of it, afterall you'd have to be a pretty special person if someone wanted you to stand up for them at their wedding.

Focus on the positive, don't stress over anything you cannot control and do your best to control what you can (like with the eating lightly and the immodium), and finally, have a bloody good time at the wedding, and send happy positive vibes towards your sis.