Complex

[lizzy]

Feeling a bit Complex!

Hi everyone

I feel like I am having a bit of a hard time at the moment. I have been having a steady decline in my illness for about a year now and in the past few weeks its got a lot worse. I keep my illness secret from lots of people in my life which I manage to do ok. Although I am at that point right now where I need to tell people and now not having laid the foundation there I am finding it really hard. Its taking over my life to the point where I need other people on board not just my mum and me. And because I have been slowly going downhill I've kind of annoyed a lot of them by seemingly distancing myself from them when actually its that I've been to ill to see them etc.


Good things do happen and I love them very much but it all just feels like being in the middle of a big wave crashing against another one sometimes!

Sorry for the rant! Thanks for listening I do actually feel a bit better already.

 

[suschex]

Lizzy, it sounds like you are going through an awful lot right now and I can imagine it does feel like one wave crashing on you after another. I know it must seem hard to think about telling people after keeping it private for so long but I bet a lot of them will be super supportive and understanding! Glad you posted a rant...it is so good to have this place for just that! I hope you start getting better quickly....hugs!

 

[lizzy]

Thanks suschex! Its all not that bad. Sometimes it all just seems worse you know!! x

 

[chrisnsteph1022]

There's nothing to be ashamed of regarding the disease. Tell a few close friends. They'll understand and be supportive, hopefully.