This is my first time posting on here. To spare you all the drama and make an incredibly long, novel sized story short, I will just say that I got "sick" in May of 2010 with awful pains that to this day never let up. I went to countless doctors and had numerous tests run all to say: "you're constipated" "it's in your head" "nothings wrong with you" "anxiety" Which yes, I have dealt with anxiety my entire life and due to this unexplained pain in my lower right side that changed intensity and position constantly from dull and achy to sharp and stabbing all within a matter of minutes, only intensified it. I developed severe anxiety and ended up with a panic disorder that I'm still working on controlling with counseling today. Over the summer after a serious bout of pain and a spiked fever my GI wanted me to go into the hospital for scopes which resulted in none of than my Crohn's diagnosis. She also said I had IBS-C along with that which would explain why I don't get diarrhea at all except during sometimes. It's been almost four years of this absolute misery and while for a short while I get to feeling "better" the terrible pain never ceases to go away. I went to the doctor last week and my numbers and tests were fine and now this week and weekend I'm an absolute mess. I haven't been able to eat hardly anything for days not because I can't hold it down, but just because the thought makes me sick to my stomach. I managed to eat a bit more than usual yesterday, but today I'm back to I ate some toast and that's it for the whole day. I'm not even hungry. I've lost at least five to six pounds. This isn't normal for me and has my anxiety way up again. My pain level is through the roof. I've taken every medicine I've been given to ease up on pain and it isn't. I've also been on my heating pad like crazy. I'm at a loss because I don't know what is wrong. For the past four years I've been convinced it's my appendix even though it's been cleared hundreds of times, but I'm still stuck on that. I also don't know if this is just a weird flare up or what. I'm absolutely miserable, especially since I had to head back to my university today and I just want to be back at home where I can cry freely to my parents. Waiting to hear back from the doctor about what to do, but I feel so utterly alone and awful that this was my last resort to get some form of answer/feel better.
Apologies that this ended up being a lot longer than I expected. Kudos to you if you actually took the time to listen to a poor, sick kid cry about her problems and pains because no one else will listen.
Apologies that this ended up being a lot longer than I expected. Kudos to you if you actually took the time to listen to a poor, sick kid cry about her problems and pains because no one else will listen.