Depression

[fromthegut]

Hi friends is anyone else feelign depressed. I thought I was doign well. Now I am starting to feel a lto more lethargic and tired a lot. I feel like i cosntatnly have fog in my head..adn I am grumpy as can be. I think it's becasue I am isolating. I tried to find a job but nothing has worked. I am lookign at finding somethign rewarding but haven't found it. I actually don't care if it is volunteer either as I jsut need soemthign. I ahven't been eating as qell either. ztoo much sugar and dairy. I have slacked on the exercise too.
it jsuts feels like I am really really dragging. I''ve gone to my GP but he seems so impatient lately.
the msot he usually does is gets angry and tells me to up the anti depresants or go to cousnellign. i even find the counsellors overworked and burt out. I don't have a lto fo friends.. except a friend in my building. She works a lot.
The msot rewarding volunteer work was Hospice work but boy does it touch a lot of buttons. I have also visited nursing homes. But it freaks me out when I see the people I visit ahve passed away. The universe keeps drawing me to people with illnesses and recent deaths.
it's likely cause I had a young person of my family die many years ago. I ioften jsut try to wipe it under the rug like he hasn't gone but it is so obvoiuus to me. I miss him dearly and his footprint is everywhere I go.
Also I lost my dad when i was 25 and that was a shock. Also this illness does not help. I can't handle a lot of stress and busyness. I jsut get very anxious.
I still feel like there is soemthign else goign on. Low iron, menopause or soemthing. my iron has been low but my Gp is leary of senidn me for Iron injections. I really think there is soemthign wrong with my iron of blood. When I ahd infusions I really felt a lot better for quite soem time. But then it starts dropping and I can notice a difference but my GP waits until it is really low.
I also have a nasty cold that doesn't want to go away. It feels like ym body is starving too. I keep eating but am always hungry. I think I need to eat more protein. I jsut feel zonked.
Thanks for listening. I realize I am also feel lonely. I have been hibernating as I ahve money problems and don'
t want to spend money. I miss helpign people msot of all. It keeps the focus off myself and onto others.

 

[kildare crohnie]

keep the head up lad... the last few months have bein tough for me too man. you should try and see if there's other people with crohns/colitis in ur area for a chat or get together every now and then. maybe start playin poker in ireland they hold poker tourneys in the pub once a week where i live and its a great way to meet people and have a laugh used to love playin even if the bad beats stress you out sum times..anyway keep the head up u never know whats around the corner

 

[jkd1111]

Oh yeah.....especially now for some reason....I am a benefits specialist for department of family services and it is highly stressful (dispense food stamps, medicaid, etc...and in this ecomony I see it all). Like I need more stress in my life! I have to listen to problems all day long and just once would I like to spill my guts (so to speak), but can't....and unless the person you are speaking to has a form of this "wonderful" disease, they just don't get it.

So hang in there my friend...I know that sounds trite, but it is the best we can do. If you are lucky you will find someone close to you that understands and will give you the necessary shoulder to lean on.

It sounds like you are hit with a lot of "stuff" right now. Same with me, so I truly know how you feel. Started about 18 mos ago when a very dear friend of my committed suicide...Just can't figure it out to this day. He left such a HUGH hole in so many lives.

Kildare has it right also. Get involved with something. I bowl, and I told the ladies the other night if I quit that I wouldn't do anything, so they were stuck with me forever!!!!

So, depression...Yep. I think this disease sets us up for it and some days, months, years...are just going to be worse than others.

Again, hang in there, and hope it gets better soon.