I haven't went through much of what you have had to, I was just diagnosed in March but I do know what you mean about feeling it is preventing you from doing what you want. Since diagnosis I have missed out on numerous family get togethers and have been quite removed from social events as well. The toughest part is not being able to work or care for my children. I love them so much and miss being involved in parts of their lives. None of this is easy, for you or anyone. The nice thing is we all have echother and we understand that there are times that are harder then others. Please stay strong, I will pray for you, you have had to go through quite a bit, I am sorry for that. I hope you find some help with everything.