Feeling sad

[S.O.]

I'm new. I have been suffering with different syptoms off and on for 17 years. After a 5 year battle with a diagnosis of IBS I had a 10 year period of remission. But after an incredibly stressful period in my life I became sick again. After numerous trips to the doctor I was finally able to get in to see a GI specialist. After many blood test a colonoscopy, CT scan and enteroscopy we have determined that I have indeterminate IBD...UC/Crohns :yfrown:
I was taking Budesinide however I have been batteling many infections so I have been taken off of it and put on Pentasa. I have tried diet, exercise, vitamins..etc. Nothing helps. Aside from the usual stomach issue's...I have patchy spots on my skin, issues with my eyes...and some day's my hands and hips ache so bad it's dibilitating. I work at a semi-professional job that is getting increasingly harder to do because of my daily symptoms. I have an incredibly hectic home life with 4 children and a spouse...who although he try's...doesn't really know how to support me. Ive been in this recent flare for a year and a half now. I'm starting to feel depressed and hopeless. I have a difficult time trying to take care of myself with so many other people requiring my time. Without even a clear diagnosis I'm becoming increasingly frustrated and sad. I feel like a pin cushion and a science experiment with all the drugs and tests I have been undergoing. A definate diagnosis would be nice!

 

[jengirl22]

Hi, I am so sorry you have been suffering so much. I have been sick since may of last year, diagnosed with colitis in January. I also have been feeling very sad, depressed, and kind of hopeless. This disease has really affected me physically, mentally, and emotionally. I have just graduated from college and everyone keeps asking me if I've applied for jobs and what's next for me, but I don't know what to tell them. Right now I'm just trying to make it through each day. It has been such a struggle. Trying to smile and stay strong for my family while I feel so alone and scared inside has been really hard. They don't really understand what I'm going through, especially the emotional part. The only thing that helps me is my faith in God, focusing on my church and on my family. If I couldn't lean on God to get me through this I would completly loose it. I am new to this forum too and I'm hoping this will offer some more support. I wish you the best in your recovery, remember that this won't last forever, we will get better and things will get back to normal, we need to keep the faith and keep fighting. Smiling and laughing is the best medicine! =)