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Worried@cmc
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So I’m 19 and I was diagnosed a little over a year ago in March. I have an insane family history of Crohn's so I had a colonoscopy even though I had basically no symptoms. They found that I had inflammation in my terminal ileum. I basically thought they were overreacting and that I had been misdiagnosed. And then there came the abscesses in May. Long story short. got perianal abscesses in May, put in hospital, had first surgery in June, was put on insane quantities of antibiotics for June and July, started remicade in July, got more abscesses which turned into a fistula in August, got a second surgery and sexton put in and went off to college. This year college has been fine and for the most part I haven’t really been sick. I think the seton and the remicade kept my Crohn's in check for the most part. About a week ago I started to feel an abscess form. Now I’m terrified because I’m about to start finals and I keep thinking about how quickly things went bad last year. To make matters worse I keep getting insanely frustrated and angry with everyone I’m friends at who complain about getting a cold or that they don’t feel that great. I try really hard to not complain about my crohn's but I just really want to tell them to shut up and deal with it which I know is unreasonable. It just hurts my feelings because I have told them all that I have crohn’s (not specifics) and that I get very upset when other people act like the world should revolve around them because they have a cold. I’m really scarred, and nervous, and just wish that people could understand that it’s a little upsetting to talk about having a sore throat when I’m worried about my abscesses making a come back. I just needed to say that.