I've lost my faith

[fromthegut]

I really don't know waht to do. I ahev been on a goverment Disabiltiy for several years. It has been ahrd but I haev survived. I ahd been feeling much better and was (praying?) about makign soem toher changes. Manly getting out more and having fun.
Now..the Ontario government decides that I am gettign too much for " Special Diet" I will get $169 less a motnh to live on. I had actually went down on ym medication I had been doign so well ! too bad I didn't get money back for that.. but I don't.

I feel liek soemthign inside of me is brewing. I am often on the verge of tears but don't want to give in. I am hurt.. that is what it is.. i wam so very very very hurt !! i feel liek the government and mayeb others ?? Do not want me to get well.. physically or emotionally. I am seeing now where certain people.. woudl rather have me off sick and broke.. well quite frankly to make them look better. Isn't taht sad ??? When or if I call for support . ti's always about them and how bad off their life is. What I am grateful to say.. is that I do not.. abuse alcohol, drugs or smoke cigerettes !! I have manged to avoid that. My vice is food !! And maybe reading... I like books and magazines..but I have even managed to curb THAT !! WOOHOOOOOOOOOO !!!
I ahev even stopped goign out to eat with peopel I don't like !! Going just for the food was not enough. I just did not like being in their company !!

 

[Ms.TG]

The government doesn't care about the ppl. The do as much as possible
To give as little and get as much. It's the way the works works now. It's not fair but life isn't far. All you can do is adapt. Stay positive and hope karma exsists.