- Joined
- Nov 10, 2008
- Messages
- 85
just a 'little' venting..
I'm so mad/depressed about everything. I'm sick of people you sit their a criticize every little thing about me. I saw my mother for the first time in months (i live with my boyfriend) and the minute I get into her car all I hear is "katie I didn't even realize that was you, you look SO anorexic." Like really? C'mon ..my mother of all people should realize what I go through since I havent seen a doctor/been on medication since her insurance kicked me off in march(now waiting for papers to come in to send to insurance company to get back on). But its not just her, its everyone. I don't even like coming out of the house anymore because im so thin and pale. I hear it all the time .."you don't eat enough, look at your bones popping out of your chest, look at your thighs blah blah blah".
Since when is it okay to tell someone with a chronic disease that they're anorexic? I would never in a million years criticize anyone with any type of disease/illness. I think its one of the most inconsiderate things you could do. And I hear this on a daily basis from the people around me. I used to be the "curvy" girl. I had hips and a but and breasts(which i still do have
ha) and now thats all gone. I went from being 155 ish when I started having problems down to 120 when I was finally diagnosed. Then got into remission and was 130, and once I was kicked off my insurance I have now dropped to 100 pounds, an alltime low for me.
It just seems like no one around understands, even though they claim they do. How exactly do you understand when you have no idea what it feels like to be me? Having the worst abdominal cramps, going to the bathroom constantly, i had fevers all this week peaking at 104.5, and chills, nausea, vomitting, being constantly tired. How could someone who is perfectly healthy even understand all thatt, expecially while telling me how terrible I look.
People are just so incredibly nice now-a-days, dontcha think?
I'm so mad/depressed about everything. I'm sick of people you sit their a criticize every little thing about me. I saw my mother for the first time in months (i live with my boyfriend) and the minute I get into her car all I hear is "katie I didn't even realize that was you, you look SO anorexic." Like really? C'mon ..my mother of all people should realize what I go through since I havent seen a doctor/been on medication since her insurance kicked me off in march(now waiting for papers to come in to send to insurance company to get back on). But its not just her, its everyone. I don't even like coming out of the house anymore because im so thin and pale. I hear it all the time .."you don't eat enough, look at your bones popping out of your chest, look at your thighs blah blah blah".
Since when is it okay to tell someone with a chronic disease that they're anorexic? I would never in a million years criticize anyone with any type of disease/illness. I think its one of the most inconsiderate things you could do. And I hear this on a daily basis from the people around me. I used to be the "curvy" girl. I had hips and a but and breasts(which i still do have
ha) and now thats all gone. I went from being 155 ish when I started having problems down to 120 when I was finally diagnosed. Then got into remission and was 130, and once I was kicked off my insurance I have now dropped to 100 pounds, an alltime low for me.It just seems like no one around understands, even though they claim they do. How exactly do you understand when you have no idea what it feels like to be me? Having the worst abdominal cramps, going to the bathroom constantly, i had fevers all this week peaking at 104.5, and chills, nausea, vomitting, being constantly tired. How could someone who is perfectly healthy even understand all thatt, expecially while telling me how terrible I look.
People are just so incredibly nice now-a-days, dontcha think?
